Topi Hijau

Do what you mean, Mean what you do

2012-01-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

Feared not something that I enjoy (picture not belong to me)

I'm not a good looking person, neither rich, stylish, brilliant, well mannered, famous, but I do shine on my own way, at least I'm not borrowing the spotlight from anyone.

I dun have clear objective of my "material life", when I want to get married, what car I wanna drive, where I wanna work and etcetera.

Because I believe no matter hard hard I try to foresee the future, in the end it just a prediction, I just wanna go forward until I stumble upon something interesting.

Life is good,

When you wish for one,

Life is hard,

When you think it is.

Life is boring,

When you stop dreaming,

Life is meaning less,

When you stop believing.

PS: Dear blogger and Friends, no matter how hard your life, there are others having more difficult life. Live you life to the fullest as long its in the range of your BELIEF and your capabilities. LOVE YOU and wish you the best! GL HF =3

Makwe / "Girl friend"

2011-09-06T04:13:00.000-07:00


(Teknik Photoshop yg hancur)

Hari ni dalam kereta, mcm biasa aku duduk belakang, my sister driving n father at front sit, my mother beside me...

The car stop at traffic light..... RED

Mom: Ko bila nak bawak kereta?

Me: Suka duduk belakang (a simple answer, I not in mood to talk much)

Everyone: Laughing

Mom: Ko dah ada makwe blum?

Me: Huh? (this a very rare question), Nop

Mom: You should find one! Many my student already engage or married!

Me: Maybe sometimes

Mom: Why dun you take "A" (better dun reveal the name)

Me: Already belong to somebody

Mom: Because you late...

Me: Not my interest, why you so busy.... you wanna married hah?

Mom: No laa.... Oh, how about that "B"?

Sister: I dun want her! (tetiba sebuk mcm dia nak kahwin)

Me: .............. (better shut my mouth, I will never win btw)

Dulu2 habiskan belajar dulu, jgn gatal2 nak makwe2..... now day... makwe or pakwe just like insurance heh?

Yar, I single, candidate for that "girlfriend"/makwe = nop..... I dun really prefer to 24 7 sms, call.... its boring... i get it through that time already.... instead of love.... actually caring that became love and later became annoying....

Maybe I would found one..... berserah jer kat tuhan..... XD

Now you can earn rewards by sharing through facebook and twitter with #ChurpChurp! How cool is that?

2011-09-02T09:09:00.000-07:00

Now you can earn rewards by sharing through facebook and twitter with #ChurpChurp! How cool is that?

http://www.xes.cx/pics-misc/churpchurp-1.JPG

(Picture above copied from http://xes.cx/?m=200907, it giv u some PICTURE of what this stuff)

Sharing something here,

It's an advertisement campaign... first u do not have to frequent update which they already have AUTO UPDATE; How cool is that?.. then you can customize the frequent of the update to be Auto post.. and the most important.. u will get reward for every unique click, which they record or detect by using IP...

Try it.... n it will work very fine for ppl with numerous number of follower XD

If a genie granted you three wishes, what would you wish for?

2011-08-31T22:16:00.001-07:00

genie are bad......

Ask me anything

Are you a morning person or evening person?

2011-08-29T10:14:00.001-07:00

evening person.....

Ask me anything

Capture flash video and audio from any website to your computer

2011-08-28T11:13:00.000-07:00

http://jiteco.com/jcopia.html

Today a special post regarding a software to download kinds of stuff u prefer on net. Its name is JCopia. Below a brief description regarding the product and the link is provided under the image above. Feel free to visit the page XD.

Product Description:

Easy to use!

Simple and friendly UI.
Just play a song or video online to save it.

http://jiteco.com/jcopia.html

Capture Flash Videos from almost all Flash sites like:

Youtube
Google Video
MySpace
DailyMotion
Metacafe
Break
etc.

Captures MP3s from audio Flash sites like:

MySpace, Pandora, Last.fm, vkontakte, etc.

Compatible with Windows 7/Vista

JCopia has met Microsoft testing requirements for compatibility with Windows XP, Vista, Win 7

Free download to try and free to upgrade once purchase.

System Requirement

OS Supported:

Windows XP/2000/2003/Vista/Windows 7

Hardware:

Intel Pentium III 800MHz or above, or any Athlon ; 512 MB RAM or above

Here the link again:

Capture flash video and audio from any website to your computer

Roaming around Putrajaya

2011-08-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

Bergambar didepan........... tah

Gedik betul budak-budak ni, aku pulak obviously terlalu excited XD

N lepas habis jer bergambar...... "area ni tutup" - guard

(Some area will be closed to tourist approaching midnight)

There lot of place to roam at PutraJaya, try looking around, the building, design ..... architecture perhaps so moving forward... like a little Abu Dhabi in Malaysia. Btw thanks to the unpaid model n also to the so so photographer(s)....... looking forward to come here again

Reflection?

2011-08-20T14:28:00.000-07:00

http://all-one-line.deviantart.com/art/Reflection-Wallpaper-2-124526152

I meet someone.......... just happen....... which share some obvious similarity between 2 individual personality and characteristic

It feel weird.... gaming...... way of thinking......... perspectives............ how we arrange our life........ most of them........ its scary but its true.....

I got lot of friends........ and most of them got one of my characteristic........ such I got similar hobby like him or her.... like n dislike....

Have you ever wonder?

I feel like meeting my twin...... scary but happy...... which make me feel some sort of either complexion and completion... but not perfection...........

I shall remember this person..... because August make me realize how small this world is..... and how many possibility that we cant predict........ you new friend might be ur cousin friend friend and at the same time your former classmate industrial friend......... world always spinning around as my life also.... but mine got the opposite rotation LOL

I wish all blogger and whoever soul there........ a better life and knowledge..... because human are nothing without knowledge.......... and knowledge belong only to people that search it, at the same time... knowledge only got one master (God, himself)

Twisted

2011-07-20T12:57:00.001-07:00

To the night wind I whisper

To those that dead I wish

A heart once filled with hope

praying on despair

The blazing sun has no mean

To a person living in dark

The light could shine his path

But not to his mind

A smile tell thousand mean

Full of joy, Full of hope

But the same smile has other mean

A mean that mean to every soul

It’s only time gazing on him

Whispering to those that won’t longer speak

Laying still on solid ground

Waiting the time to stop ticking

Their body still as tree

But their soul rooming the living

Those with heart can only feel

A feel that peel their tiny heart

To the night wind I whisper

Praying on despair

Praying on dark

Because my heart

Empty as my grave

Whisper, whisper and whisper

Double Trouble

2011-07-03T09:47:00.000-07:00

Jun and July seem to be a tough month to me... they are very unpredictable.... and yet I still sitting here and enduring it by myself... I really2 need to meet my adviser Badri Rozali to talk...

Speaking of tough, a past few hours ago.. I have been gazing Zatil Najat profile pic on facebook.. the pic show the figure of heart that have been divided into several sections which is not very scientific... (I dun think it scientific at all, but give unique thought in my mind...(trigger me to think)...) showing different part of what I believe "LIFE".... a section of romance, a section of defensive behaviors and ect..

Make me wonder... what is the biggest chamber in my heart...

Maybe it's Joy or Hatred... I cant decide... the smallest... maybe living without friends... well I dunno.... maybe someone close enough to me may define all those chamber... time move so fast... I even barely know my friends, they change too (a lot) as well am I.

Heh... the title of this post didn't seem to define the content... well so be it.. ha ha.

I wish July being good to you reader... and I wish they being good to be too,,, bye: XD

Dot dot dot

2011-06-18T13:55:00.000-07:00

Sari berita pagi,

seorang pemuda bertindak mendelete akaun kawan-kawannya laman web sosial terkenal (facebook) setelah mendapati mukanya tidak lawa. beliau yang merupakan pengguna shampoo bawang amat marah dengan kritikan2 panas kawan2nya.

Sari berita lain,

jacky chang mengemukakan fail saman sebanyak 3 ribu ringgit keatas pemilik restoran sate kajang kerana tidak memenuhi perjanjian hak sewa beli kereta sorong bernilai 45 ringgit.

Sekian

Stop Animal Abuse In Malaysia : Pls sign Online Petition, I begging u guys personally

2011-05-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

Stop Animal Abuse In Malaysia : Online Petition: "

Animal abuse is increasingly rampant in Malaysia, with senseless abuses and killings by local councils and cold-blooded people. We must act NOW, and act FAST.

Let's play a role in stopping animal abuse and cruelty! We aim to collect 50,000 signatures ASAP and present it to our Prime Minister.

Please sign the joint online petition by leading Malaysian animal welfare NGOs, and show how much you care about the animals. Spread the word to your friends too.

Together, we can make a difference.

Sign Petition Now:
http://StopAnimalAbuse.PetFinder.my/

"

Dear LOL from SEA

2011-05-04T10:05:00.000-07:00

It seem u manage to block "us" again....

I know there are GARENA server. But I rather stop playing LOL than transferring there.. I play this game since the BETA n indeed I enjoy playing with player from this server which I found to be productive... I did try the SEA server, and it gives me heart ache...

The server very lag which I found funny because NA server much faster than SE... (made me wonder,,, I'm either in NA or SEA) and I dun like changing my community

LOL make sure GARENA did carry your name nicely... which I think they didn't do nice job...

Btw thanks for the game.... it was fun.... n to the players... yeah... u guys really giv me a new lvl of online gaming....

I feel uneasy with this new improvement!

2011-04-27T01:07:00.001-07:00

see the two rubber bands? that to bring my upper teeth back ward, so that it align nicely btw the wire that look like Sun Wukong head band….. LOL. if u notice… on the upper teeth, below the straight wire that common to the bracer wearer, there are wires that tighten up like double helix to make sure my front upper teeth move in a set… (mcm org beratur tu gerak seragam jer)… this “accessories” like increasing my damage hahhaa…. calculate like this, rubber = +10 defense'; wire 50 attack and extra wire = 20 attack penetration… gosh I surely win… hahahahahaha…. it u ask me “does it painful?”… the feeling like hold your teeth with your finger and push it back or front… + chew some metallic item lol, k da,, got notes to read @_@

Exam.... what is exam?

2011-04-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

I think book look very good


but when see the exam time table.... gyaaaaa

Dear People, or bloggers,

April would be my exam month... pls pray for my sake.... T_T....

I would do my best and I also pray that all my friends... only best friends.... and maybe a little for those I called friends... or maybe just them all.... that u will do fine in the incoming exam...

I dragged into what so called study group... but I think it's working....

No matter what your strategy are... (for those that take exam too)... do your best...

Dun do for your friends, family, pet? and whoever... Do for the sake of your self... because in that way you actually helping them all....

P/S: study hard and smart... but not that hard haha

Creativity Everywhere

2011-04-01T06:43:00.000-07:00

When I went to toilet,,,,,, I would monolog.....

Not like I'm crazy.... but that a bit true... but.... nvm...

Me:(looking onto a fresh shit)

Me: You from which food? Are you the McD or KFC I eat yesterday?

Shit: Silent,,, wait to be flushed.... T_T

Me: Oh I see a green stuff (fiber).... now I know, you my last day lunch! I eat "KangKung" yesterday!

Me: Satisfied....

Conclusion: No matter who you are in this world, but when you die.... every grave just the same @_@

Preserving Genetic Diversity

2011-03-27T21:52:00.000-07:00

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I got an assignment requiring us to evaluate either ex-situ conservation possible to provide enough amount of genetic diversity of species before introduce back into its nature. Well the typical answer is either yes or no... but since this in like an opinion based answer + this is ecology biology, the only relevant answer I could think is depends on the target species.

When talking about conservation in ex-situ, and to preserve genetic diversity. there are several answer that you need to find, such as could it? what is the effective population size? how many the diversity in organism itself? do we have the efficient method? how big the space required? enough cost?

I think I have make your self dizzy with all the questions. Endangered organism do need special attention from us, their habitat loss are due to over Homo sapiens domination of nature resources without thinking the relevance and consequences. Therefore, the intervention of human in this matter is really crucial because they cant survive in their natural condition not due to natural selection but due to our own act. If you ask me "so, ex-situ important?", I would say "Yes", but with other question, "would it be successful when we reintroduce back?"

There are several studies indicate that, ex-situ conservation cause the loss of trait due to adaptation organism evolved through several generation when breed captivity. In nature, natural selection may work on organism by eliminating bad trait or in other mean organism with unfavorable gen. but in captivity, those selection is barely work, because lost of fear to human, cared, given special attention and others. For hatcheries with focus to fish, there are little success in introduction, most of the reintroduction of fish population in the hatchery into its wild environment face failure. While zoo, with focus to rhinoceros and elephants; they (refer to female) might suffer aging in reproduction (just like if you wont married, your reproductive system became dis-functional), and that what happen to most of animal in the zoo. Their behavior for interest for reproduction got disturbed with unsuitable environment (Hello, give little privacy, we trying to mate LOL) and some required special condition or requirements, birds especially like stork bald bird aka local name burung botak upih (Scientific name = Mycteria cinerea) which I have saw one at Kuala Gula, Perak that requires special elevation for nesting and breed (hey no one bother to make cage like tower T_T). There are also report that only some female that actually produce offspring which give us information that female that lost their interest to breed, their genetic wont be pass down into her offspring. Well so did the diversity continue? Furthermore, zoo cannot maintain large population size for effective breeding and genetic flow, and what we afraid is that we actually using inappropriate method and population for ex-situ conservation. Inappropriate population mean that we actually conserve population with less genetic diversity. Oh, before I forgot, some study also found that that rare allele might only be found in population in nature and not in captivity. What does that mean, you answer yourself LOL.

But still in-situ are favorable because nature take care it all. But that wont make ex-situ totally bad because some species do success in ex-situ and survive when reintroduced back.

But there are difference between animal and plant. Because plant have special stage which one of it is seed which enable them to be maintained for such long period of time, so little problem with ex-situ.

Ok, I think I stop by here, others just ask me or you figure by yourself through reading...

P/S: have a nice assignments time...!

I never forgive, I never forget, by I do accept,

2011-03-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for everything happen. Part of those mistake from your side as well mine. I do not like to say "because human always made mistake", it just sound very childish. I'm sorry if I being very sensitive and at the same time insensitive to your feeling. But that is me.. Miss communication and long kept hatred worsen it all.

For now, let the past by pass. Acting as it never happen, gonna help a lot.
I never forgive and never forget, but if you and I, let it just pass by. And the memory blurred... consider it forgiven.

Do not worry about others perspective. They are my friends and also your friends. You might got place to cry on, but mine is them. The haze will clear, because my feeling and them work as one, because when I accept, they also would.

This should be a good lesson for both side. Taking people for granted never rewarding us.

I'm here to make friends. Being remembered and remembering, the feeling just much more worthy than a paper of the degree I got. Paper only show, but it never comfort you in time of difficulties.

Giving second chance never in my options. But for the sake of a new beginning, perhaps its worth something to try.

We hurt, we bleed, we feel. Never treat people as you think they might recover fast. Because there are always scar that remembering everything. People won't be same, that made us special, and that made us fragile, but when those colour of life combined, they actually works as one.

Boys.. girls... that just gender. Feeling and emotion just the same stuff. Either its hard as steel, calm as water, elastic as plastic or fragile as glass.You choose, what you wanna be... mine is glass.

The past is a past, but the scars remain - let time heals them. So it would be forgotten.

There are much to do, with less time to think - let us choose the better way and hope it the correct way.

My feeling still hurts but its getting well. Good luck to you and to me. This might be how god want us to learn, but somehow in a bitter way - and I hope we taste the bitterness as part of life.

-Sun do shine, Moon do glow-

I just love my friend too much! pity people without friends

2011-03-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

Firstly, no pictures. because, they not being uploaded yet.... hahahaha

Today a blast, totally a blast. All my misery gone. Meeting close friends, people that know you, accepting you. The feeling is undeniable. They are so supportive and open-minded.

Today, I bring some new "jewels" for my friends to know, they are my new friends at UKM. to be specific (Farhan and Fait). Well, they kinda very shy (unspeakable) hahahaha. I have a principle, my friends are my friends friend. WHY? I love to share good things with my friends because sharing is the way I show my respect and how important them (my friends) to me. But I dunno how long can we be friends because not all friends actually share the same mean (desire) as you and still I have high expectation on them. I just love my friends Nadea and Kucai (I dunno the real name, but whatever), such a sweet couple, an example of a good maintenance and balance between friends and BF-GF relationship (wish them happily ever after). Zatil, yes Zatil, a girl with some potent resonance with unlimited possibility. I'm glad I keep her close, and David Chang too, can't imagine how a word from Zatil can actually calm me (a breeze to my headache). Syikin... haiz, always lost today, but I'm glad I tag you with GPS stuff ahhahahahaa... (kinda crazy like me, but never mean as me haha)... Pcah, luckily meet her! such a long time. While, Badri, my bank of secrets, not even a word of secret pass through that LIPS, a person that never be forgotten, never. Well, that just some people, they are lot of people actually, and I didn't need to mention all of them. To those that have a though to snatch them from me... haha you can try, yes you can, but be remember, I accept them as my friends not because they accept me as my friends, I'm a loyal type person, I gain them (my friends) as a friends because I trust them, I allow my self to be used by them as they allow they being used by me. I willing to make sacrifice for them, something that some people just will to do for people that they call honey and darling (ewwww). Because they worth it. I'm nothing without them. To Syma, sis you develop my potential, I will remember you always.

In this world, its not my interest to compete with anybody. It just my feeling to do my best and share that feeling with people close to you. I'm a laser type person, with my word and writing sharp as blade. I feel sorry if people bleed too much because you not my BFF obviously, that a prove you never know me and never accept me as I am.

Today also, I watched the Merong Mahawangsa movie: well I dunno how to describe it literally, but a review is a review.... hmm hmmm.... k let me put it this way, awesome with all that boom and bang in the plot... (I dunno how to describe the movie, its like you lough + cry + shock at the same time!)... I and Badri personally disturbing other people with our laughter, <"mengintai di bawah tudung saji>.. gosh if you know what it mean... haha...

I want to grade as master student happily, with my friends on my back, I dun care best student award which I never dream about. I just want to take a scroll of master and a ton of happy memories...

I felt betrayed

2011-03-08T06:17:00.000-08:00

http://youoffendmeyouoffendmyfamily.com/stabbings/cv_stabbing_1006/

I just notice, something about me, and people taking my word lightly. It just like you are insignificant to them. I always think about them, wanna them success. But in the end, word just a word. What your feeling when you ask some one to be in a group for an event, and after 12 hours, you ask for full name, this you got "sry Akmal, I with my friend group, I dunno anything about this and my friends just tell me"... WTF? you taking my word lightly isn't it. So now I'm going to play by your rule. I'm sharing NOTHING.

The other thing is when you said "ok, I'm going to be there after I go here and there"... whatever, I wait. Did you know, I wait you about 6 hours! Not even a short damn SMS? What you think I am? I trust your word, every one of it.... and now, I'm taking back that trust.

Do not take people lightly, you don't know what hope they put on every word you said. I trust this people too much, I think. Maybe this is the time to end.

I call Badri just now, well I need someone to talk about. This really frustrating and irritating.

You Such A PIG

2011-03-06T12:16:00.000-08:00

When I see you, I hate you,

When I hate you, I ignore you,

Did you notice that?

No, you don't!

Because you are just a simply minded or lack of sensitiveness,

You dunno people angry with you?

Use your head! PIG!

*sry PIG I keep using your name... not your fault, it just easier to use PIG than his name.... TQ PIG

SHE worthless

2011-03-01T15:15:00.000-08:00

a woman is a woman, never a man, never be a man, even she tried to be a man,

This a story regarding a woman that tried to be a man. Bisexual and homosexual, neither I care. For me its always as "Accept me as I am and you shall be accepted" + "Dun disturb me, and you won't be disturbed".

Its common that she can change the personalities in a period, but still the fragile heart remain. And that why, you can lie who you are, but you can't lie who you actually are.

I no longer like you, that a fact. For me you are a narrow-minded person, when obsession conquering logic. Narrow-mind is my enemy, because there are no space for people like me inside, when you always true and others are wrong. I know that not your principle, because its your blind loyalty. The eyes that worth nothing.

People are build with ego, no one can deny that. But the most stupid ego is to close your mind from learning and knowing - The point where you collapse.

I wont blame you, because that you, you are insignificant and yet you are my friend. Time will teach you, and you will learn, as you said "learning by experience is matter than learning in orthodoxy method".

As I write this, my feeling for you dissipate, I feel sad as I though all this time you are an open-minded person with all you have gone through, and now I realize it just an empty shell. You can be what you want to be or what you believe, as neither of that will affect me because I know you go no where.

You are You and Me is Me - obsession killing your sense

"Love The Way You Lie" Original Demo by Skylar Grey

2011-02-13T09:10:00.000-08:00

Look into my eyes, did u see despair?

2011-02-05T10:13:00.000-08:00

Natural Eyes (i dun know but the colour recently get very2 brown)

with contact lense

Here if you cant see it clearly

Wearing contact lens is not very fun actually, my eye lashes too long so it cost me lot hard time to put it in. Btw hygiene is very very crucial, because you must want to avoid any infection such as acanthamoeba which i have previously worked with. And second, I wear it for fun... so its Halloween everyday haha, people got shocked mostly including those makcik2 at the shop and my supervisor T_T.... anyway, remember that it just for fun!

The price for knowing

2011-02-01T05:01:00.001-08:00

I always got upper hand on every knowledge, info, gossip2 (sry no cheap gossip, including celebrity). But those info going to make you feel the pain of knowing too much… secrets are hard to keep and come in a great price.

When you think of being an informative person, make sure it does not involve secret and only plain knowledge of certain field. If not, stitch your mouth or you going to hurt your self or ppl around you.

-advise for myself

Ghost of The Past

2011-01-31T11:21:00.000-08:00

I missing my old self, my old-friend, but I buried him too deep - Please, Rest in Peace

I did once try to take him back, but I fail. My new-self too strong, bonded with everything around me, my friends, my emotion, my evolution. While the old, was too weak, fragile, and obedient, slaved by the time of maturity. Its kill him, hurting him, forcing him to be "other".

Who is this actually him? Why did I care too much? Past is just a past, shadow of present.

He is pure plain white paper, a personalities shaped with kind and truth. Neither sinister and rebellious act exist. Coloured with crayon and colour pencil. Not with water colour, printer ink or colour spray. On it, the most ugly drawing of bird you have seen, with false blend of colour; too good to be lough at and yet its pure and sincere. The drawing is the view of life in his perspective, on which everything is kind and sincere. But when he meet others, being sad, being hurt; so the colour changed, the style became complex; and that the time he relize that, he have to die for other to born. So the new he buried the old one.

Time is a cure and a killer. This "he" is my past. He must be remembered because he the window to the past; like an old picture that resembling memoir of the past.

[Like the bird on the drawing. It is ugly trash drawing. But it is bird, a symbol of heaven, because Angel got wings]

To the old-self, please rest in peace. Let me carry the burden so that you wont be tainted. Please remain pure, because you are relic of the past.

Upon your grave, I will build the future, even I have to colour all black. I wont let your sacrifice for nothing. Please pray for my luck, O my past.

Akmal Mahazar, 2011

My Friends

2011-01-18T08:10:00.000-08:00

Several things I usually describe my friends;

They are special,

They are sometimes annoying,

They are freak,

They are informative,

They like a breeze, come and go energetically,

They like a present, you dunno what the surprise,

They like a bee, always making noise, noise that u gonna miss when its silent,

They just like a star that making the darkest night seem fun,

They got the most sincere smile u have ever see,

They are cleaver in their own way,

They know me most, even from myself,

They never break my heart,

They teach me many things,

They are people I call brothers and sisters, ignoring their race, religion and status,

They are people that miss me, and I miss them too,

They are people that make a piece of my life seem very valuable,

They are supportive,

I dun like people to badmouth them... they are my FRIENDS not your... My best best best friends, and I love you guys

P/S: Sry the post quite colorful lol

Just, a crap

2011-01-17T05:42:00.000-08:00

I at UKM now, as a master student.. guest what? They treat me better than while i doing my degree at the other university... I dunno... but ppl here so kind and very informative.. but that not what i gonna to crap about,,,

Last week, I read a technique on "How to bend a spoon", not like I am free or what... I am bz n yet I am bored... so I grab a thin spoon n began to focus... guest what the spoon kinda to feel soft (I think its my only imagination), but its not bending,, but if it bend, its should be less significant to see hahahaa...

Today, I just got back to hostel. and guest what.. I forgot my keys... so, call my mom n ask her to post in... haiz.. this is very lousy of me, I never forget to bring the key while doing the degree... but at master lvl haiz... this is the "sign"....

I develop a new stupid hobby at UKM... movie.... every week gonna watch movie... thanks to Zul that fetch me up,,, haiz... but I think that I less supporting the "cetak rompak" now hahaha

I'm thinking of getting the glamorous contact lenses (just for fun stuff),..... I just wanna try it.. btw my friends is planning to go for a trip to Redang this May... but I dunno... either I wanna join or not... RM 264 3 days 2 night... hmm hmmm

ps: done with the craps... starting to do my assignment now.. (pray for me)

What we decide to see?

2011-01-17T05:30:00.000-08:00

I should be working to finish my assignment, but end-up updating my blog. But i just thinking of something, we human can't foresee our own fate (future). What we might become, when we die, who we married to,.. that all a secret, but what if we can see the past, a past that we can't remember, maybe we too young, in coma state (anyone?), or absent at the moment,, I dunno what I want to see... flash back all the memory, so not my style. I dunno what my style. My friends perhaps know me the most.. T_T..

Takes a moment, n think what u want to see... at the past...

Happy Tree Friends - Christmas Smoochie

2011-01-09T10:37:00.000-08:00

Drip drip drop

2010-12-17T09:12:00.001-08:00

I hear the sound of rain,

so tender and calm to my soul,

like a soul of a girl,

that touch your heart with her words,

Drip drip drop;

I hear it again,

The sound of fallen rain,

Drop upon a cold floor,

As cold as my empty heart,

Drip drip drop;

Its cold in here,

Chilling till the bones,

Cause bones is what left for me,

In this empty grave I rest in peace.

Watch your mouth BITCH!

2010-12-11T06:50:00.001-08:00

Today I really2 angry, let me be straight. my fat cousin (girl) back stab me… calling me black even-tough you are also black, won’t admit me as her cousin (like I want to admit you fat ass), plus her mom also kind of the same. What I do? NOTHING!. Whay they so noisy with me? They don’t give me money, comfort me, or what ever,,, Did I talk behind them? NO. Why I not really care about them?, because I do not really close to them… just in the name of uncle, auntie and nephew. Every one of the family feel angry with them, also my other nephew.

Her ambition to be a doctor, listen to me, that fat body of you won’t let you became a doctor! Now I pray you will not achieve anything. I never pay attention to you before this, but now I am. And I wishing for the worst! your current CGPA 3.00? and you currently in matrix program. Sincerely, you wont make it. You think because you a nephew, you can ask around people for their money, you know that your financial isn’t that strong and yet you treat people that support you like your Swiss Bank. You better watch out, they are losing their patient on you!

All the past 4 years I have be really2 patient with you family rude behavior. Now it payback time. I wont regret and you shall fall. Next time we meet, I’m not your cousin but your worst enemy. Btw, your rude behavior has make you to get lot enemy, you wouldn't get nowhere. Oh, your mom very2 concern about your fallen gred (I hope it keep falling), I can see from her eyes that looking at us (that have pass our degree and pursuing our master), she know you wouldn't became what you hope.

Let your dream parish, I will the one that lough at the end, and it always the same ending I see on people like you.

Cry BITCH!

Mizz Nina Feat.Colby O Donis–What You Waiting For

2010-12-07T21:10:00.001-08:00

Check out this music video, its nice. Actually I heard this song like it but never watch the video or care about who the artist of Mizz Nina… but Colby yup I know him (basically) because of GaGA I think. By the way, the song great! superb, even though, there were many criticism since she a Malay which is believe to be far from what being call as Malay Values… yup she is sexy (damn). However, I want to give 5 stars out of 5 because,,, haahahaha this song more good than that Datuk Siti, lol.

*I’m going to buy the album, but is this the only song from her? hit single?

A story of living like a puppet

2010-12-01T04:36:00.001-08:00

Have you ever wonder when to stop pretending? Smiling when you aren't happy, laughing when it’s aren't funny. But one for real, cry when it’s sad and it’s real, the saddest is…. no one would know.

Always judging people around and being judge by them, its like karma. But one for sure, that rarely do, is to judge our self. We like forbidden thing, as long its forbidden it’s a bless. A sinful bless.

Living as a puppet. A sign of good liar, an expert of emotional control and also a sign of self distortion. Which the life it self, a big lie; a theater of drama, with all natural actors but only one watching and knowing it’s just a drama… the puppet it self.

We lie, we talk big, we walk in agony, but simply… we still know that it’s going no where… we hope to stop, wishing for the end and yet we simply do it again… just like a spinning wheel, “up down up down”.

A life to regret and still they’re always option to choose.

Two great Artist

2010-11-21T10:33:00.001-08:00

I rarely hear to hiphop… but this music just to catchy. Like it because my ear loves it

raya raya raya raya raya raya

2010-11-16T05:31:00.001-08:00

yeah yeah esk raya

(ulang lagi)x10

esk raya

(ulang lagi)x3

sekian saja update blog kali ini

*WTF

Night + Ghostly + Senseless

2010-10-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

Friday Night–Lily Allen

Malam jumaat sambil mengkagumi iTunes media player, tetiba terdengar lagu ini. Pelik rasanya sebab walaupun lagu diatas telah sedia ada tapi baru beberapa minutes lepas mendengarnya (pelik aku type dgn bahasa pnuh… anggaplah latihan penulisan BM).

Malam ni kelakar sgt,,, sbb tadi kat astro ada crita “beranak dalam kubur” (ghost story), tp problemnya aku ketawa plak masa hantu tu kuar ha ha…. aku rasa aku dah jadi sloww sikit process maklumat LOL. Nak main game pun takder mood n akhirnya tertulis blog. Journalism so not my life! but I finally end up here.. wasting a little time to get my sleepy state. Harap2 tak ada yg membazir masa baca blog ni….

Walaupun hari ini hari jumaat or creepy friday night as many people selalu kata but for islamic friday is special day… org melayu suka fikir bukan2 pasal mlm jumaat… nasib baik aku jawa <rumpun melayu gak>

Hari ni tertengok gambar shamin kat FB yg sedang menjalani training kat UTM… ps: dia dah gmuk… gosh…. oh mari sembang pasal shamin…. I know him masa first year… org yg suka tersenyum n tersengih….. oh so not in my friend list…. well I don’t like him at all!….. pernah tak tegur satu sem! but then the last 3 sem sunddenly became friend….. not very close… but one of ppl I think worth to waste that phone credit….. maybe sbb sikap dia yg senseless n bad humor…. akhir nya aku kalah! sbb susah nak buat org mcm ni faham kita tak suka dia, n lama2 kita teradapt pulak kawan ngan dia. Btw terasa nak puji sikit shamin ni.. dia seorang yg tinggi leader ship… semangat setiakawan n jiwang tak bertempat… N marilah kawan ngan budak bernama shamin sbb walaupun anda tak suka dia lama2 kita akan auto adapt sbb dia ni immune to provocation, n sinister plan…

aku baru perasan….. isi kandungan blog ni bercampur aduk! What a trash!

This is hilarious

2010-10-25T05:28:00.000-07:00

I found this in you tube... but i dun dare to share on my FB.. so here ok i guess.. but its true.. protect your self n other lol

PS: cant believe they are educational video like this

Postgraduate….

2010-10-21T06:04:00.001-07:00

this the status of my application at UPM…. and below is the offer letter from UPM

So we see.. gu gu gu

P/S: My butt already have a sit in UPMn sry for poor picture quality, dunno how to get a better snap

I never hope for them to aged..... but some aged for good

2010-10-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

Cute, handsome, young, God focus on this special creation, n bla bla bla.... I always asking myself, why some people that look very very handsome/pretty (in the time we meet) turn to be..... other creature? Like we dunno... really2 dunno..... mcm Laila (kawan Jenny) pernah kata.... ada org letak ubat gmuk dalam air dia.. yg menyebabkan dia jadi gmuk............ I dunno how aging make people seem very differ...
Here the story... I got a friends that I think very2 handsome in past 6 years... and after 6 years not meeting him... all the facial structure change.. like changing into other people that I never know ... (I not recognize him at all, like monster)... and some that very so so... became so masculine,,,, (never go for gym)... it make me think... how can this happen...? I even think.... will I became positive or negative.. in this growth process? If you have ever watch the Curiuos Case of Benjamin Button (if I spell it Correct)... we would like it to be just like that... so youth full in the late age... waaa like dream come true.

But my auntie always said.. if you always happy,,, never done anything wrong that lead to feel uneasy or guilt. You will be younger than your age. So the conclusion, problems are unworthy to be worried negatively, but need to be solve with open-minded and positive thinking. DON'T LET YOU AGED BEFORE TIME!

My current state...

2010-10-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

After graduating from UMT... I had doing so well in managing my house..... (I dun work!)... wake-up on 9 a.m. tidy the house, feed the cat and cook for lunch... doing laundry.. but I cant wait to meet December. Usually I hate December, cause its the time when the school end, friends have to go separately, and your bank account all seem to be disabled.. but now I waiting the December in curious, further my study at UPM or UKM... btw I doing the coursework only, (my auntie said just to make sure you grade in correct date), I dun get what she mean, in my mind..... whateverrr.
Its damn boring at home, almost drain my sanity. I think I already insane since updating this blog also not in the top priority... as said by Kak Mai "dah lama tak update blog". At home I speak less and move less, there were days I almost not going anywhere, and some I just sit still in front of the lappy starring the screen, just to see if something new pop in the FB notification!
Gosh I forgot to say something,,,
I still finding my true self, are you? not to be confused... building your self (which I mean) or being build into a person that the society or your friends, parent prefer. Many people aren't happy with their self since they just a model that suit the society or fit into it nicely but not in their soul, like a soulless puppet. When you try to be other, something that fit your self, there were always obstacles... this just a nature... those who fit shall survive. We can't run from being people that not our self... because we need to fit to survive. Those who excel in this,,, I call adapter, with the ability to adapt all state of environmental changes... that why we see people that can fit into all kind of society or bunch of people that something vary between each.... can you find one around you? Then you should learn and adapt like them.
Life is short, and yet it long... to those who understand. Endure it... and always remember, we always have choice....

Alexander Rybak - "Roll With The Wind" (Official Music Video)

2010-10-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

malaz

2010-09-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

saya malas nak update blog... sambung master baru update!

Bila dah mlz segalanya pun malaz

Unjust sentence for Japanese anti-whaling activists | Greenpeace International

2010-09-16T11:17:00.000-07:00

Unjust sentence for Japanese anti-whaling activists | Greenpeace International

Changeling not as easy as told

2010-08-15T10:38:00.000-07:00

Changing is a process.... a process that need times..... and times that depend on yourself....... so takes your times...... as I always said times always a better cure... plus don't expect to instantly change, change is not like magic with one "poof" you become somebody else..... or what u dream... the key of change is time and your inner self... I trust you as always... my loyal never divide.. as if you are worth to be embrace as friend here and after.........

cited: YM: detkbell (my YM LOL)

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri Lyrics

2010-07-18T05:34:00.000-07:00

I fall into it..... (love)

Cinema + Nonsense Talk

2010-07-14T10:53:00.000-07:00

I will be going to KL this Saturday with my trusted friend badri.... Syamin shall be tehre too (hopefully), even though we are far far away but if one of us really work to treasure the friendship, there no such room for good bye...

Apa lah yg aku merepek ni, terbayang kan Shamin yg gemuk (aku akan cemburu sbb aku tak gemuk2)... But anyway maybe I will satisfy Badri to watch his choice of movie (I have watch all of them dude)... Sam tak leh kluar sbb kerje hari sabtu (contract work really this difficult?)... Nak ajak Zatil but U know she probably busy, plus her mom wont let her out (as she told me before)... Zul (my dearest friend yg suka panggil aku darling, well same as me; suka pura2 jadi kawan baik sebenarnya hampeh) this man dah balik awal ke TRG... aku lupa dia ada kelas 'extra'... I miss that Sabahan n Sarawakian friends... my chinese friend soo damn silent dunno where there are except for Chen n Fong.. but nvm I know they doing well... as for Tan uhhh I know he always in front of his lappy (a paparazi)...

Nadea stay at seremban... (baby sitter do have lot of work, respect U) Syma? clubbing all night long a next generation Kesha i think. Jenna ? see lot of her blog but her FB account like die already!... Kamil (I forget U already) whose I forget to mention? too many people I wanna to bebel but anyway lets put it into one sentence...

U guys light my life....... plz shine others as u shine on me...

Konvo dilemma

2010-07-12T10:53:00.000-07:00

Im thinking what should I wear for my convo?

should I wear all red for konvo... or black...... naked is not an option.... should its be plain or boxes n poke dot is not in the list..

how about shoe,,, high heel is never... leather perhaps? my hair! straight yup definitely but what style? GaGa cover album? they will chase me away... and the queen will collapse...

ah I dunno just wanna be perfectly perfect for the day,, family and also my friend.... wanna they look me in my perfect shape or at least ok lerrr for the day that I rather say as the last day I being with them.... sob sob (sedih skit2, anak sulung kena tabah)

I also thinking what others shall wear... baju sama? haha I will definitely notice that! Uh Jenny wear what? hmm curious curious,,,, zatil? tak heran apa dia pakai but wanna know what she gonna add into it (accessories) zila maybe more make-up.... acab? n Sam... I hope they look cute.... I also hope Kak Alyn,, and all da master student such kak fae n da geng would come..... wanna see them badly.... Leo Leo Leo hmm mana budak tu... Jenna, Ummu and who ever they are miss them... distant friend? yeah I wanna see them too.... as I know non-of my schoolmates or roommates die fast all long lived... god bless U guys...... uh lastly nat the bio marine...... uhh wanna see that smile again! Uh I such annoying person hohoho... but that what make me me .... till the day (counting counting) XOXO

RM 7, 000.00 in my mouth

2010-07-11T10:51:00.000-07:00

I have being gone to my untie house at UK Perdana which a famous area with celebrity... p/s: their house not very pretty or big.... (I wonder where did they spent their money)

however, the main point,,, I had done bracer to rearrange back my teeth (hard to chew or speak fluently)........ now cant speak extremely fast and eat slowly,,, such a good manner I have.

The cost to make this bracer is very expensive for me but nvm, most of my friend got shock when I share this unrelated news with them... some of them though I was joking... (guys I never joke, I though U guys took it seriously!)

Let me give U some hint of my current look.... I got a line of wire at upper and lower teeth.... with the Upper front teeth were sealed with orange rubber,,, while the the rest are green,,, lower teeth were all blue..... (look like clown)

Dentist aka Untie (Dr.): which colour u want? we have blue, white, red orange etc

Me: I prefer orange: uh ok orange...

Dr.: Uh all orange colour finish.... no more u want other colour? oh u cant speak.... sry then I decide green (pandai2 jer makcik aku ni)

Dr.: alamak hijau pun habis.... gigi bawah ni biru lah...... ok siap...

Me: I feel like having all colourful stuff on my teeth....

Pura2 blogging.....

2010-07-09T09:03:00.000-07:00

There was a tiny monster (aka nephew) beside me that try to lure me to left my lappy for him to play due to abundance of games in this lappy, but hahaha U won't get it! so what I do was just typing and typing till he get bored (unfortunately not)... for the past 20 minutes he keep talking about the game he have, what games u have, how difficult the mission uhhhh..... shu shu go away I wanna surfing haiz...

Right now I really in big problem... is there any exorcism ritual to chase away this kid haiz...... I am really paranoid with active children...

Syma making blog?

2010-07-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

I dun no where to start,,, ok like this,,, I just read of Pcah with her block which I still didnt subscribe yet, where the hell that she hidden it? ok latter I find it. However, Syma is going to have one too? uh I can imagine what she going to write.... it must be clubbing, dancing, partying, luxurious vacation, BF, BFF, BITCH and a big content of her prob... ah I think I will follow it due to high rate of XOXO dosage.. hoho...

Just one word for that RED LADY....... GO!

A Letter to Jenny

2010-07-09T08:45:00.001-07:00

Dear Jenny,

Have you break-up? Gosh I dunno since when did U really gone single (nampak sgt terbaca block edisi wanita ko)... being single sometimes not very good (referring to myself) well u might have ultimate freedom over ur action and no one can say what u can or cant.... but there is times when no one around to rely... or share something more personal other than ur family or best friends... its lonely in my case I always worried that no one thinking of me but its doesn't matter I don't take much times to recover from it.

U know something I also did the same stuff as msg unfortunate friend to disturb them just because we are bored or lonely... my common victim is badri... I dunno why I pick him but I know how long I talk he will patiently listen (I'm not gay) he is my best friend that I know (including U too) this make me think of "what a best friend for?"...

anyway Jenny, life is a life after all... but I dun want to be lonely forever...

I going for Konvo!

2010-07-05T00:22:00.000-07:00

Yeah tak boleh jadi tgk Jenny asyik mengupdate Blog nya... mcm dia sorang jer ada blog... serta memenuhkan inbox ku dgn coretan2 hatinya yg separuh adalah garam kasar..... walaubagaimana pun lebih bagus dari zila n kak alyn yg ku rasakan hanya bukak FB menunggu org ramai menyapa mereka seperti celebriti2..... dan yg menjadi paparazinya adalah ku dan saudagar cina Tan Tiong Kai....

Minggu ni akan ke KL tuk menjalani pembedahan gigi.... waaa mau tampak menarik di pesta konvo nanti...... dgn gigi besi.... tercapai jugak hasrat ku untuk menggigit mereka2 yg ku benci hahaha....

Dihati ini ku tak rasa rindu dgn sahabat2 ku sbb jemu melihat mereka sentiasa ada di facebook... (bgs jugak ada bende ni)......

uh cukuplah setakat ini hahahaha (selesai misi update)

Things I don't Like!

2010-04-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

Akmal I know u love to do many stuff & have many interest... but they are things this person name akmal don't like:

1. Akmal dun like people to use its property like it was rented

2. Don't like to wait or make people wait.

3. Respect his space, because he need more clean air to think or he became insane

4. Don't bother with his money, he know where to spend it

5. If you plan to live in one roof with him, please be quite and have more sensitivity or you be cursed till death.

6. When it come to PROMISE make sure you keep it. Or he will not promise you anything.

7. If you not his OFFICIAL friends that stated in his friendship list, dun act like one. That the moment you became his OFFICIAL enemy.

8. If he is silent that mean he is angry with somebody near him.

Hope this tips let you more aware of people name Akmal. Because he didn't mind to be a demon if he want to...

March (Akmal, 2010)

2010-03-27T00:32:00.001-07:00

Hahaha dah lama tak update blog,,, kata zatil berhabuk huhu...

Today Kak Syma telah berjaya mengimport perfume Ralph Lauren Polo Black yg sangat misteri,,, (bau dia),,, mmg misteri sbb I try a spray n lepas tu tak sampai 15 minutes aku trus tertido.... Uh mmg pelik.... well I kind of like it,,, tq Syma Branded hahahaha.... harga kat luar hmm around RM2++ but dapat RM190 cause bli kat kawasan duty free.... KLIA.

Kak Syma

I like perfume, it make my nose feel very very good and feel relax lots better... uh down here is the ingredient that they use to make the smell... sense magical...

[Frosted mango, Aldehyde Tangerine, Lemon, Fruits of water, Sage, Sandal, Black Patchouli, Timberol, Broad bean Tonka]

POLO BLACK

Hmm another think saya baru dapat tgk Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce telephone.... as expected from Lady Gaga..... nice vid n song.... freak actually but that what I call art and unique....

Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce - Telephone

Hmm my FYP sound good condition.... sekarang tgh study tuk exam.... walaupun cuma 1 per 20 shj waktu dalam sehari study... uh God I am very lazy today hahahaha..... tp rindu rasanya kat staff, master student at Inos especially penghabitat Makmal 3 haha..... I wanna see the amoeba for the last times before I fly over to my kampung....

Sometimes I have chat conservation with people from Canada, Norway, UK, US n where ever, girls man, autie, uncle, straight, bisex, homo, ah I dun care,,,, since I wanna compete with Zila tuk tgk sapa ada kawan paling ramai di YM haha since that I add and being added by people around the globe.... kadang leh jadi duta gak,,, yang paling pelik,,, sometimes I do the vid conversation, U know what they say, (1) you look very young (2) Nice skin colour (3) Your lips is very kissable>>> this are stuff I can never imagine to hear around here,, pretty much it make me appreciate my self n I also think they blind sometimes; usually I response like this... "I dont think so, maybe the cam make me look better on it" ... maybe I should go for oversea for further study and see their response! My YM friends currently 266 people.... I need more... yang paling tak tahan bila tetiba ada peminat yg tak dijemput nak tgk cam shj,,, masa tu lar fungsi invisible sgt bernilai...

People said my face look very convenient for people to interact with, is it? my friend say.. "haha mmg muka mesra, innocent... tp demonic presence tu ada" (Amir, 2010) <<< Amir dengki haha

other... "Your face look like org yg kerja kat kaunter pertanyaan!" (Jenna, 2010).

Eh susah nak jadi kaunter pertanyaan, U have to know lots of stuff,,, n many2 links... but thanks to internet; everything possible... yg paling penting to know all or desire for all knowledge,,, U must be open-minded at the same times put a barrier that keep you away from the knowledge you might gain because not all knowledge made for all type of human...

Uhh nampaknyer I succeed updating this blog for 1 month period haha.. yeah tak yah update sebulan....

This is unacceptable!

2010-03-17T10:35:00.000-07:00

I wanna buy something on ebay... and it state that we only have the product at singapore only... malaysia? hmm nop......... waaaa so frustrated!

Why huh?

I just want to have that item lorr.... uh Malaysia plz develop faster but plz conserve the environment too...

I learn this... one of the obstacle of conservation was North-South division which refer to industrialize country at North and Develop country at south... north country have people that mostly educated, well feed and love environment because they have learn from their bad habit of destructing it in the past. Believing they must have and spread conservation to protect globally. why south country full with people that dun wan to learn from past history, stubborn, high poverty, we also believe that we have right to feed our selves even it shall cost the environment.... I can guarantee if u go to any people adult 40++ and say sir our nature is very badly disturbed n bla bla bla... it wont work!

I have been in this taxi and the driver say what u do there,,,, tanam bakau pakcik... and he reply why tanam bakau better go work got money,,,,, bakau can live them selves. uh that poor pakcik need to go for science class! badly.

I an one of scientific community and vow to spread the knowledge even it shall be the pain in ass. shit.

Party, Annoy, Argue, Opinion, Distraction, Sress

2010-02-28T03:38:00.000-08:00

Ni buat dalam bahasa Melayu sbb ramai org susah nak faham bila aku cakap depan2 mcm ar aku fail pemahaman sekolah rendah tp mungkin sbb aku tak bertutur mengikut trend org lama2. I dunno nak pergi annual dinner lagi ker tak sbb sound mcm anual party! furthermore, almost all my BFF tak nak pergi, why? because tu dah mcm gathering... untuk pengetahuan korang walaupun tak tanya aku dah cari pakaian n macam2 tp bila dapat info yg last2 minit >>>> combine uh god, my interest gone... sem akhir dah ni, so aku dah tak berapa peduli dah pasal himpun ramai2 ni, sbb I only interest to meet my friends only. tp still tak bg kata putus cause tgk ar kalau BFF aku say "jom ar bg muka" maybe lerr. First sem i dun go fot anual dinner why? I have thing to do at home but i pay; second year, I went sbb bg muka kat kawan aku ni sbb asyik datang umah merayu2, but kawan aku kata yg keter putih tu masa dinner kita dianak tirikan jer,,,, btul ker? maybe aku dah hilang sensitivity. third year? haha whose know if i going or not. people I wanna have fun with my family (BIOD) tp kalau dah gather ngan kumpulan besar yg i only know 10% shj,,, i cant be myself. what the hell i care to other people that bising2 kata tak sporting lah or what ever cause I Have Right To Choose. that for the dinner...

Ni yg pasal teater, I not aktif member due to my other stuff yg aku lagi suka buat. so ada plak senior yg bising2 sbb tak involve, ko nak involve pergi ar involve... saya dah tawar hati. noktah. but am i still support teater? yes sbb ia menarik.

Uh I have enough with all of this, ada yg kata Akmal what do u have....... I tell U, I sincerely dun have what U have or what most people have. But i have what most people dun have. kalau semua org dalam dunia ni sama jer,,, baik mati! boring btul. tp kan ayat tu mmg mengguris maybe sbb kena kut, but takper I know what Im capable in.

Dua tahun aku asyik ikut jer apa org kata org buat. sekarang dah final, aku tak kisah dah. because the time after graduation I have another life to think about.

To my BioD family, no matter I love or I hate U with all my life but still u are my family, no matter how our past relations have been u still my family,,, because to the family we shall return to. (bende sama aku cakap kat Ayu).

Dan kepada yg cuba sakit kan hati aku, uh congratulation u are hell successful. and if u happy with it fine, if i do mistake to u i apologize,,, that all what can i offer.

Im in critical moment to plan my next life so people plz have some sensitivity that I not a doll!

Have a nice day

Down n Up like global warming n global cooling

2010-02-02T03:19:00.000-08:00

Firstly, my plan for post-graduate study (MSc Programme) is likely to became true.....

The lecture say well Im more happy to supervise u if u can maintain your CGPA 3.++,,,,, so, I think I can, and then apply for master fellowship RM 1,300 a month wahaha,,,,

Anyway its not the money that I chase, but the knowledge,,, I not a book worm, more to computer worm (not virus ler) but at least I have a dream that shall be reality,,,,

What worrying me now is that,,, my treatment always contaminate but never mind cause I have discover the technical error and I shall get the result (FYP getting fast),,,, well as you know at most critical moment that we need to submit work struggle with borrowed life and time,, this would be the likely moment for problem to arrise... Oh GOD save me...

A new begining.... for my old self...

2010-01-04T06:01:00.000-08:00

Just another me...

Dear people,,, today is my birthday, a sign that I have already 22. Well nothing planned to celebrate it. Why, I'm just busy or more sincerely I don't feel I have too. Me, myself comes from a family that not celebrate this day. I just know people celebrate it from movie n whatever.

But I never expect many people wish me happy birthday and that make my heart melt. A power of bound and information.

So, I just wanna say and express my deep gratitude for remembering me as well as being very sweet to me. Forgot all the gift, I don't need that. I just wish to be carved in your memory as a people that embrace his friends.

Let me share you something,,, as for the new year and my birthday; I want to obtain my old self. A far different people you know from today since I'm very ignorance hahahaa. Forgive me for all the mistake I have done so I can be what I used to be, a long time ago. Thank you.... dear friends.

I though I lost her

2009-11-25T21:11:00.000-08:00

Losing a friend?

Well last night was a very chaotic day in my friendship history. I didn't mind to lost any of my friends because they are just merely a friend. But losing a best-friends? nop nop nop. That was unacceptable. I do know she was very fragile, not sensitive to others also others that not sensitive to her,,,

I hope she read this that Im very sorry for all the miss communication and also lack attention given to you coz I'm barely trying to care of all heart of you people there. And therefore I missed you,

People do talk about you how you became ignorance and hurting other in a way you didn't notice, but for me its normal because that was you a past 2 years I have known you, yes people do change but most characteristic still there.

I recognize you as my best friend and I hope thing like this won't happen again. I also a fragile being; I think more fragile than you, easily break. I have more friends than you but they are like thorn in my heart. I treasure you as my friend and stand for you if you not there. "We" accept you as our best friends but sometimes there and not me wandering why you treat someone that not sharing everything with you like information, plan, fun, and what so ever, more than you treat us, we are here; your best friends. We need some attention and appreciation from you. We dunno if you afford to loss us. But I sincerely not.

"Friends is people that you can find anywhere, but best friends might come just one in thousand, they always thinking and taking you with them, share something they wont share with others, because you are more worthy to be with"

Problem teaching Us and teaching others

2009-11-18T03:59:00.000-08:00

Abstract Suit Me Better Than Formal

Lately many thing unfavorable happen to me... its hurts and burden me much,,, where sometimes friend became enemy and rival became more supportive to myself. I hate problems and sickness. Hearing other people problem also hurting me deeply. Well a world free from problem was never exist. I realize that day by day I have became the old me,, negative,,, negative person. A type that not easily going well and where everything got filtered in my head.

However, Im glade that there still people that still support me and advise me. Sometimes I can became very naive and clumsy,,, sorry to other,,, I really want to finish this degree student life as quick as possible and get going to the next level far away from past memory.

Life isn't fair as always Jenny said....

For me life isn't fair if we keep thinking about we desire and when other get it easily but we have to work hard for it.

My FYP,,, hmm the cell contaminated and now its still in unfavorable condition. I really hope it will get ok soon. very soon...

Am I jealous about others? yes I am. I jealous. I want what they have,,, physically or materially. But as time goes on all gone like it is easily wipe out. Time a good medicine for me...

I hope problems can teach me well to get going as I want to live with life. Lastly, I just want to be myself... not other person, as other have idol for their motivation,,, I'm not, because I just want to be me, just me.

A deep n yet beautiful

2009-11-01T11:41:00.000-08:00

"The greatest weakness of most humans
is their hesitancy to tell others
how much they love them while they're alive."

Orlando A. Battista

"Bright stars never leave. They die, yes, but remnants of greatness trail behind them, scarring the dark universe with light."

Comment from 15Malaysia

I desire death

2009-10-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

I full with my hatred right now, I realize that there are many insignificance being around me and I didn't like it. If you cant make yourself useful to me than get away from my sight!

I hate to hate but when I start to hate nothing stop me even your tear just an entertainment to me. This demonic act have long imbue in me all this time. Cursing cursing cursing... I not even remember how many times have I repeat it. I hate too many stuff and always keep in my heart without I realize its now poisoning me. hahahaha Do I care? You insect just should die and anyway whose care with your insignificant life to me you just a tool.

Even if I cant parish you, I still can make your life harder than death it self. Don't talk big with me because you don't know me, You just know a smiling stupid character that cheering for other and wish for their happy ever after... and yes I do mean 'Happy ever after'; Till death I shall carry this hatred with me! and my curse will through your blood and even for last descendant of you.

Beware dont play with demon.... you don't know whose you play with... I never forgive and if I did that a lie... I'm not a fool or your entertainment,,, well if you don't have anything related with this post than feel free to relax maybe its not your turn yet...

FYP

2009-10-15T04:43:00.000-07:00

Low has finish his fyp and I believe also Fong..... hmm Im tired... very tired... my life is tired. must act so that other wont hurt.............

If I being given either to live or to die.......

You know which I will choose....

I hate to get sweat, either to be worried...

I hate to be order and also giving order...

I hate to be bond with others but I dislike to be alone....

Too many hatred,,,, Too many sadness....

Non to share...

I hope,,,, my heart would stop beating, forever...

Lucky me not...

2009-10-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

Why?
My handphone submerge in the swamp water!
Many FYP work to be done
Assignment!
Money...

Well, I think I have to survey on new phone and also just try to send the phone for repair. However... losing my phone shall slowing my information,,,, and assignment also. How I want to contact my friend!

But anyway.... never mind, this problem will gone someday... I hope there will be better luck after all this incidents... Must endure it.

Too lazy to update blog since, nothing interesting happen this time.... sry Jenny, I can't keep with your pace!

Story of star that sometimes bright and sometimes dim

2009-09-24T08:16:00.001-07:00

Colour of Face

I have a special request to describe someone that we know,,,,,,,. this people we have know since first semester at UMT,,,, very bright, positive, righteous, and also friendly. For me She was a good friend ( as long she didn't back stabbing me or my friend ). At first semester, she was very energetic, seeing the spirit pumped us too. She was very friendly toward every single people including lecturer, however her friendly and self identity sometimes being miss understood as lobbying others but I know she not as other portrait it.

Being very different was sometimes hard; I know because I feel it too. The similarities between she and me is that we have a such unstable emotion, but the different is how we manage it. My advice to her; talking to others or making statement was very crucial with correct body language and the tone you use. Some people cannot respect or show other way to respect people, to survive in this condition you must keep the pace of your spirit down and slowly so that it wont be very obvious till the emotion resembled on your face. I also can see the different in her personalities in her; other say ''the dress isn't fit, the makeup weird! you cant wear that thick makeup in this very sunny day!". Sometimes I have to agree on those opinion. Fitting in other is not easy which you have to follow their step, sometimes we have to stand on what we believe but sometimes their are right and vice verse; this is the Quid pro quo (The price for that) where in order to have something there must be something you must exchange. Those that can fit and blend in other without sacrificing their identity was a survival of the fittest, those not fit shall be rejected and this is the normal way of the rule.

Back to the topic. At this final year many changes has happen to her; some describe it as personalities shock that happen when somebody exposed to many factor that might lead to confuse of self identity. Well for me, I accept as you can accept me; an advice again, those word are irritating for sure, people can say anything and none can stop that. Either you reject that or take that as an advice that comes in a bitter way, or seeing into your self. Denying own self was hurting but the achievement after that was sweet. Homo hominis lupus (Man's a predator to another man). Some say her voice was too loud and I happily can say yes! that truth! well in other perspectives that voice irritating their ears! since they are people that comes with very complex do and don't manner.... this kind of people mix with people that mostly comes from upper class than our the middle class. Knowing them before hating them is a wisdom of those survival; we cant blame them for the way they think or be because that way was far more evolve. And yet we will became like that when we got to that level. Dress resembling pride, makeup resembling pride, altitude resembling pride, this is the Vanitas vanitatum where all making up a complex personalities. Different people have different aspect of pride..... for me your voice have spirit in it, but the space belong to everybody; sometimes people have bad mood or memory, when a loud shock can irritate them..... we cant win all heart...

She have a good friends by her side; but can she prove to other that consider her as annoying girl that she can balance and change? can became very high level? can she amaze us? truthfully I also wanna see.... every people have a complex personalities, many have more than two personalities, but which are dominance to others? winning other people heart is not what I ask neither to became other than you wanna be. But sometimes, a surprise can change people mind. We wanna see can you adapt?

Too many I want to write; but the decision is still up to her, became your self doesn't mean became other; but it like a melody....

A long break

2009-09-20T06:01:00.001-07:00

Its have been a long time I didnt update anything into this blog. not because nothing to say but sometimes things a not mean to say.

Well its raya after all. Not to be hypocrite, I not a raya fanatic people; raya or not raya..... have less means in my life, as long i finish my duty as a follower. I feel sad for Jenny to be left by her flight and sorrow to Leo that we left alone at home; there are not Muslim but however in my life dictionary no matter who your friend are, if you was their truly friends; we must treasure them.

A first raya was annoying and good thing to me. annoying when people came and act like they know you for a long time; the good thing is that I had visit my long passed grandmother.

Well I have to leave for now, till we meet again.... tata

Wanna See Dead Like Me - Life After Death

2009-08-24T09:49:00.000-07:00

Horror or Funny
p/s: I think both

Tonight just pampered my self with a movie of Dead Like Me - Life After Death, and well it is a good movie,,, well I recommend for those to watch it!

The ending song was also great,,, even it sound funny to my ears.
So check it out ya!

Silent Heart

2009-08-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

To feel what love is, is something rare for me,
To know the person shade was only thing I can,
To grab the scent was far from my ability,
To wait the person wish for me was a suffering,
To know my time gone, was a hurt,
To feel to be love, was everyone wish,
But to feel the love from the person........ will never be....
My self perish in mist...

I have a feeling to someone, but I don't feel I can be match with this person, therefore, I let the feeling gone, closing the heart was a cheat. But I did seal the feeling in a box within the arcade of my heart.

Given up this fast was must; as it will protect me from cutting my self deeper.

Reading this part for some of you, that has known this soul quite a well was something indeed impossible from me. But this is the feeling and memory I want to share a bit,,, as the secret of truth shall sleep beneath my arcade forever.

As time pass by I hope my time to be loved and to give love,,, shall cross.
This selfish wish of mine, comes from a empty soul,,,
For even a small of dust,,, or a tick of time; I just want to feel those feeling.....

And then my soul shall rest in peace as I known there something to be remember, even though my self shall not be remember.

Burning Candle was too noble to suit me, perhaps shade was better; as shade always behind and never being look at, as the shade it self can only grasp the figure it admire and never the reality.

Till the time comes, the silent heart wait...

Back there at Tuntung Conservation (PERHILITAN)

2009-08-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

Tuntung

70 years old at his dead

With En. Fazlin (this picture weird, maybe I not posing well)

Rm 50000 first comes first serve

Engagements

Well not bad going to the Tuntung Conservation place after all just no kipas lerrrr.. The sad thing is that the place have to function very very limited equipments... I hope kerajaan Malaysia would foresee their (PERHILITAN at remote area) hard time,,, I think its better to reduce cost on event n partying or whatever event for those VIP and VVIP... relocate the money to this program or others program like it. Isn't it better for them? from continuously in bitter.

Huhuhuhu funny thing is when talking about bontot shamin hahahahahha what a breaking news!

Some of the girls want to look for Jenny post to view it LOL!

Its fun when became close to others...

On Air

2009-08-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

Now going home!!! I in my way to got home now in the middle of somewhere, and tonight huhuhuhu,,, more story and myth,,, I have show my friends blog to Linda and Illi,,, just want to give some spirit of blogging to them... so that there are more friends in here! to share.

We just gone to Tuntung Conservation at Kuala Berang Terengganu... Have many beautiful picture of what we say exotic animals.

For those that eat them please stop!

I love those tiny guys....

Mixed days

2009-08-19T09:06:00.000-07:00

Lata Tembakah Gap area

Me and Lun Lun (I have a big nostril for better breathing n Jenny very jealous with it)

Hahaha Jenny photo contast

Jenny yg tengah tido (Muka mcm panda kata Brox)

Broadband sim baru ganti, cost me additional RM5 for next bill!

My greatest apologize since the previous blog should be post yesterday but some how my broadband sim damage with whatever reason. The important thing is now its ok... I have finish my proposal gladly, even though I have to print it 3 times! since all the page were senget!!!!!!!!!! How frustrating...
Oh Jenny hahahaha you think I didn't have any backup plan? here your picture gagaaggagagaaa..... This morning gone to Tuntung Breeding place or conservation,,, tah I don't know... but nvm meet this morning everyone!

Yesterday tale

2009-08-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

Today we was on the way to get back to campus after 3 days 2 night suffering in the remote areas of Lata Belatan,,,, uhh such many thing I dislike than I like... Why such feeling well because its not my standard after all.
anyway I manage to through this problems with such wanderful friends.. such lovely. At Lata Belatan, doing all the sampling was very not me, colllect this that but ok I manage. I have something in my head, well when two courses (Biology and Biodiversity) was put into one activities, I can see the competition, buit of course we are more brighter! Why its our job... thing that we just repeated,,, the knowledge was there.
Well below is something I listed for what I dislike most:
1. the room small (crazy laaa! Lata Tembakah is better)
2. the toilet (its stuck! the artificial submarine lunched by unknown species wont go through)
3. the food (I pay RM75! you think I what? a goat)
4. the place (bored)
5. the people (not fun at all)

but anyway there still some of human being part that feel pity for bio student since there never experience the field work, even GAP defination also wrong; some have trouble in making quadrate. well they should ask if dont know....
well from the brighter site, this field also was some message to bio that our work also have its own dificulties and interest beyond their level. What I try to say, we are equalvalence but in different perspectives.

going home with lots of stuff to finish was still a nightmare... I still need to submit the proposal.

oh forgot I have other thing to write but nvm next blog after Tuntung Trip... title (silent heart).

Vacation or Suffering

2009-08-15T18:33:00.000-07:00

Currently going to Lata Belatan, for some massy field work,,, zzzz with all the leench and insect this is my biggest suffering for this week after presentation...

Presentation, presentation and whatsoever,......

2009-08-13T09:40:00.000-07:00

What I want to say is not related with the title....
I being ignored!

Out SideThe Box

2009-08-08T04:22:00.000-07:00

Try to dive into other people thinking was hard; and harder when you actually hate him/her very much. However, people unusually try to put their place in those people that their like or dislike; substituting to feel how to be in that place was rare... the tendency why people love to feel right was because they feel secure that way; however, that was a fake victory, a cloud of weakness to their own reflection. Some people say friend like a mirror to you, but what if I say; those word is twisted by whom that try to disguise them self with other people perfection. All was about perspective; seeing from different angle of life and personalities. Why did human was very hard to predict? That because they have emotion, simply to say emotion was complex and changeable. This post of mine may have became from my simply minded and might be not; the meaning might be true and might be not. Some say there are no evil nor wrong; its only individual either it fit or not. Another question; will you kill a baby if being told? of course not... but, how if you being told about the greatest sin shall he committed in the future? This when the silent shall take place. Judging people and labeling them bad was indeed wrong for some opinion, and other say it for awareness and giving advice to others. But how if that individual only bad to you and good to others? Shall we say him bad? Question, question and more thinking. People say it is wise if you thinking whit your brain and your heart; but in my perspective, one should think and feel using both and also to see from different angle of life, not for decision, but for knowing. Sometimes some question never have answer...

Silents

2009-08-03T11:13:00.000-07:00

Its have been a while I didn't update anything... but now I think its ok...
I have been busy with my FYP (Final Year Project) not busy doing it, but busy to understand every inch of it... I'm not that 'biology' but I like to try something new... fall is not an option for me.. but I think I would be fine since I have lots of friend at my back. I actually want to go home since my mother miss me so much,,, but well the problem is my mother have to go for family kenduri arwah... the surprisingly ''when I say: never mind mom, may be next time; my mom say: sorry, I'm sorry...''
In my family the word resemble 'apologize' was rare.... well its something I can't describe by word.
Let me tell you something; I was very disappointed with my friend,,, can't they learn to respect others people belonging,,,, hoping for better from others but you didn't give them anything. I always remember 'you want something, you must give something'. And once my friend comes I can feel they don't like it very much, I do tolerate with their friend. Why can't they tolerate with mine. I don't like this imbalance.
Now, I just keep silent; I don't want to take any action just concentrating on my FYP, since I do it with a great students and Lecturer.
Maybe some of you think silent was too odd for me but true is this was one of my separate personalities 'The Silents'.

Too much hatred, Too much thinking.... I'm devouring my own self...

So busy even not

2009-07-31T17:35:00.000-07:00

I hav many thing to be done, but very busy with other stuff. to tell you, i have something that in very dislike happening around me. but nvm I lack of time to tell you, maybe next free moment. ok bye2

Hate n Love ?

2009-07-23T11:03:00.000-07:00

I can't say much about what hate or love is....cause I don't know the definition for both... some might think I differ from others.. but what can I say.. I just a friend type n not a love type.. sincerely I treasure my friend very much,, I'm very choosy in picking friends..not because there are not good or what so ever,,, but as I know most of my friend are not very normal.. for me they not because there have there own altitude and behavior that make them they.. I accept it even though its bitter and eyesore.

Here some of the name that some of you might recognize and what make them special for me and if your name not listed; that mean I didn't have enough time to wrote:

Kamil: very simple minded person, however a friend in joy ( I need one)

Badri: ohwww this very different, but I trust him the most; where all the secret I share. He is a good person if you know him better; very complex mind, hard to understand n never talk bad. I hope he know that I want to graduate together with him.

Acab: interesting very dirty thinking but I can depend on him.

Syafiq: kuat merajuk kalah aku! but very tolerate. Became dangerous when he like to keep all the hatred and sadness alone. (every people have problem and sadness; if you can observe it to their heart you can became an excellent friend type person)

Amir: I know he has many secret but I won't interfere with it. because all the matter are not interesting for me to know.

Leo: At the first time we talk, he like to throw out every sentence in his mind... very annoying. but now he change completely with better understanding. I like him becoz of he concern to others. Something most ppl lack today.

Shamin: I hate him and I like him. a very complex person to understand and that make me stick to know him.... a person that I know will survive without other at his back.

Sam: I can't talk much I dunno him to the core, but my advice to those lover since he was a very lovely person to girls; if you love somebody very much plz open your mind together with your heart so that you know that you are not fooling your self with uncertain matter.

Tan: he like my brother, I like him even though he not very dependent, I like him the way he is. Such a sweet person.

Low: a big brother, I hope he will found his dearest ppl. Such a romantic person. I know...

Jenny: A very nice person, from the first I meet her, she was very beautiful.... I hope she can diet a little. I like to see her smile... a very nice and fun person.. like to work with her...

Jihan: I dunno her much, but she always being good to me and I think that enough to call her a friend of mine.

Zatil: My first girl friend, not this ''GIRL FRIEND''. I can talk much with her,,, very simple minded and easily predicted. She has a nice heart and much hatred to informal behavior and life style... (understand your.... and he shall understand you; this what a friend of mine told me and I give it to you)

Zila: what I know a friend of Jenny.....

So many people I want to talk about.... but I afraid I can't.

I accept them that accept me. for me my friends was a part of my self, even they not need me, I do need them a lot. However life must move on, and next year after graduation we shall follow our own path.

Every time I gone to my classes, I just wish to see my friend smile back to me and that just enough. Because we must not hate someone that have became part of our self.. Myself.

pokya part 3 (the seleb and the malaysia)

2009-07-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

How should i tell u....
ok the right is me and the seleb (Zul), while on the right is the malaysia (acab)..

Zul was Acab friend, come to our life Pokya House as a DOTA rival, and that how what happen..
Well the only thing that comes and resonance all ppl in my house is DOTA, Lough and yell together... and I hate sam, he has become very good rival.. to me. but its ok.

Today was a very sleepy day, because Badri became vampire or night stalker... he can sleep for 12 hours that was very shocking and a record breaking..... and I want to clear thing he sleep at 6 a.m. to 6 p.m.

well.. today was zatil mother birthday, I just want to say.... you have a very good daugther even sometimes she annoying... I wonder where does that comes from... I hope some one can tell me how to link anything I wrote to other blog??

And for who that know Acab he has a super weapon, ask him if u desire to know. However u will loss.....

pokya part 2

2009-07-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

At my back was child name Leo, a very annoying at first but blend with us at last. saved by her girlfriend, and be close to us......
Leo now staying at our house, with his own room, just give him some privacy since he not use to be so opened in term of private thing... (p/s: we better never try to know)

today was a very dizzy thing, get up at 6.00 a.m. then sleep and wake at again at 8.20 a.m. Kamil said no class,,,, actually have.
gone with Amir like craze to kuliah and in front of the door..... we stop and thinking should we open it? I take a walk and change my mind about having lecture this morning and surprisingly! Amir follow also hahahahahahhaha.....

What we do next, was easily preparing to meet our supervisor....

HEHEHHEH sometimes I also can't understand what I'm doing.....

My sub-conscious mind has awaken..

Pokya company part 1

2009-07-18T08:08:00.000-07:00

hahahhahaha kami bersama! hahahah malam nni teruk aku kena buzz kat YM, mcm2 org ada. but aku ni peramah orangnya! so sentiasa berfikiran terbuka.....
Sembang ngan Jen mmg best... sembang ngan Zatil pun sama... heheheh untung dpt kwn mcm nii...
tp kandungan cerita x leh bagi tau mmg LOL bangat! tp bkn notty no no no...
Sem potong rambut baru sama ngan Syafik hehhehe....
semangat sem baru... yor transform!
kelakar2 tp itu hak individu guyguuguguuu........
ah aku nak cerita pasal kawan aku nama Shamin kadang2 marah kadang aku kesian kat dia nii... tp dia ni x sensitif langsung maybe sbb tu dia survive ngan segala tomahan aku, ........

Gambar paling hodoh penah aku tangkap...
sbg fotographer agung mmg memalukan!
tp ni lah kwn aku yg sengal...
kepada memakwa yg kat luar tu kalau rasa nak dilukai amik lah dia!

K lah dah banyak aku mengarut kat cn...
kita jumpa esk dgn kawan bernama LEO
huhuuh nama romantik tp dah berpunya so korang melepas....
jgn mimpi nak rampas dia,,, makwe dia ahli gusti terkenal kat UMT...........
Bye..

Presentation

2009-07-18T03:38:00.000-07:00

Li presentation going well!!!
what funny is the all trainee from GEC made the lecture LOL hahahahhaa...
we dominate...
well my presentation at the video part the computer hang! badly hang SHIT...'
but nvm I have continue it professionally huhuhuhu....
and the important part I got best presentation gagaggaa

All coming back to me!

2009-07-16T09:19:00.000-07:00

My lazybones behavior, have eating me!
tonight so many thing to do,,,,
my last advice to all my friends that shall present the LI report pls have confident in your self...

without confident u like a people that hoping other to help u rise to the surface.

k lah, have thing to do. good luck to all and may god be wif u.

Penguin

2009-07-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

Rasa mcm nak belajar guna Linux OS tp x tauhu, coz dah banyak kali dulu aku try lah nak guna tapi aku guna hanya setakat install and rosakkan komputer aku ,,, aku rasa aku dah salah step dalam pembelajaran dan juga masa install,,,, komputer aku dulu pun x support!

Aku baru beli rantai.... yes i mean rantai like above at UMT konvo shop,,, I like it,,, the old necklace dah rosak. so buy baru,,,,, larger than before,,
Malam ni x pegi pesta konvo coz baru bgn tidur... sob terlepas n my friend that said didn't want to go, left me! while im sleaping... so rude. Don't blame me if I ignore U remember I have my own way to revenge that! kk... I want to finish up my presentation bye for now...

Finally !

2009-07-14T14:09:00.000-07:00

Waaa its easy but I looping around!
nak faham semua ciri-ciri kat blogger punya setting and add-on mmg cukup memening kan aku but anyway its fun......
well i don't like to keep thing blank... that why i put all my effort into it.. sry cause my langgue mix between malay and english huhuhuu, luckly i don't use my etnic langguage...(java or bengkhulu) gigigii...
for ppl that not understand certain langguage you can ask me.... I will give u the translation.
I want to show a picture that i treasure so much because i think its pretty and everyone inside it was with their pure heart, how i know that was a secret....

See.... I LIKE IT (picture).. that male student was my friend and he was a Chinese! hahahhaa.... using only my laptop web cam... but the result and the feeling inside the pic has a deep meaning to me.. ah, everyone have their own stuff, thing that they love most! so, remember don't take other ppl things without their permision cause u don't know how valuable that stuff to them..... I always hope the best for my friend, yes indeed sometime I was irreasonable to my friends, but that because that how I show that I care them so much since I do not have many friend. I hope their friendship strong, eventhough that was their memory, I always wish just to get a bit of it; so that it shall be a memory that I will always remember....

Huhuhu enough with this selfish feeling..... hmm, I have many work to do but I delayed it.
Lazy lorrrr....

Actually something wandering in my head, can we wrote anything we like here???? I think I miss use blogger and turn it to be like my diary! LOL.... I am miss use it hahahhahahha aku x sangka aku mudah terbawa-bawa bicara ini dgn jauh! Anyway I want to thank Zachiru coz helping set-up many things here! hey teach me how to put da chat add on ! [ Its me! look!>>>>>>>>>>

Hehheeh i manage grrrrrrrrrrrr....

Hohoho im so talented sometimesss
don't get jealous.... going for Solat Subuh!

WTF

2009-07-14T12:24:00.000-07:00

I am totally noob! i can't even find the button to view other ppl blog!
oh gosh....

kadang2 kita ingat kita dah pandai tapi ada lah banyak lg yg kita tak tau...
huhuhu, oh yer sbb utama kenapa aku rasa bleh keep going buat benda ni coz aku br beli celcom broadband!!!! hihihihi.... fun fun fun.... hmmm

senang skit kerja aku....

beginer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i did it

2009-07-14T11:43:00.000-07:00

this is my first post for my blog! i cant believe it.........
thanks to zachiru and booney_aim for their will that they injected into me!!!

waaaa typing in english make me sweat! malay arrr.....
lega sikit.. banyak kerja nak buat sbg seorang mahasiswa, tp malaslah wat blog dulu heheheheh..

funggi blog?

aku pun tak tau, menyampaikan atau meluahkan perasaan? bg aku tak kot, maybe untuk mengikuti perkembangan semasa hahahhaa...... (ayat ni bkn mcm aku, if u now me)

however, maybe aku akan guna blog untuk salurkan pendapat or kongsi buah fikiran aku yang kadang x keluar kat public.... heheh wish me luck!

Topi Hijau

Do what you mean, Mean what you do

Makwe / "Girl friend"

Now you can earn rewards by sharing through facebook and twitter with #ChurpChurp! How cool is that?

If a genie granted you three wishes, what would you wish for?

Are you a morning person or evening person?

Capture flash video and audio from any website to your computer

Roaming around Putrajaya

Reflection?

Twisted

Double Trouble

Dot dot dot

Stop Animal Abuse In Malaysia : Pls sign Online Petition, I begging u guys personally

Dear LOL from SEA

I feel uneasy with this new improvement!

Exam.... what is exam?

Creativity Everywhere

Preserving Genetic Diversity

I never forgive, I never forget, by I do accept,

I just love my friend too much! pity people without friends

I felt betrayed

You Such A PIG

SHE worthless

"Love The Way You Lie" Original Demo by Skylar Grey

Look into my eyes, did u see despair?

The price for knowing

Ghost of The Past

My Friends

Just, a crap

What we decide to see?

Happy Tree Friends - Christmas Smoochie

Drip drip drop

I hear the sound of rain,

so tender and calm to my soul,

like a soul of a girl,

that touch your heart with her words,

Drip drip drop;

I hear it again,

The sound of fallen rain,

Drop upon a cold floor,

As cold as my empty heart,

Drip drip drop;

Its cold in here,

Chilling till the bones,

Cause bones is what left for me,

In this empty grave I rest in peace.

Watch your mouth BITCH!

Mizz Nina Feat.Colby O Donis–What You Waiting For

A story of living like a puppet

Two great Artist

raya raya raya raya raya raya

Night + Ghostly + Senseless

This is hilarious

Postgraduate….

I never hope for them to aged..... but some aged for good

My current state...

Alexander Rybak - "Roll With The Wind" (Official Music Video)

malaz

Unjust sentence for Japanese anti-whaling activists | Greenpeace International

Changeling not as easy as told

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri *Lyrics*

Cinema + Nonsense Talk

Konvo dilemma

RM 7, 000.00 in my mouth

Pura2 blogging.....

Syma making blog?

A Letter to Jenny

I going for Konvo!

Things I don't Like!

March (Akmal, 2010)

This is unacceptable!

Party, Annoy, Argue, Opinion, Distraction, Sress

Down n Up like global warming n global cooling

A new begining.... for my old self...

I though I lost her

Problem teaching Us and teaching others

A deep n yet beautiful

I desire death

FYP

Lucky me not...

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri Lyrics