I just love my friend too much! pity people without friends

Firstly, no pictures. because, they not being uploaded yet.... hahahaha

Today a blast, totally a blast. All my misery gone. Meeting close friends, people that know you, accepting you. The feeling is undeniable. They are so supportive and open-minded.

Today, I bring some new "jewels" for my friends to know, they are my new friends at UKM. to be specific (Farhan and Fait). Well, they kinda very shy (unspeakable) hahahaha. I have a principle, my friends are my friends friend. WHY? I love to share good things with my friends because sharing is the way I show my respect and how important them (my friends) to me. But I dunno how long can we be friends because not all friends actually share the same mean (desire) as you and still I have high expectation on them. I just love my friends Nadea and Kucai (I dunno the real name, but whatever), such a sweet couple, an example of a good maintenance and balance between friends and BF-GF relationship (wish them happily ever after). Zatil, yes Zatil, a girl with some potent resonance with unlimited possibility. I'm glad I keep her close, and David Chang too, can't imagine how a word from Zatil can actually calm me (a breeze to my headache). Syikin... haiz, always lost today, but I'm glad I tag you with GPS stuff ahhahahahaa... (kinda crazy like me, but never mean as me haha)... Pcah, luckily meet her! such a long time. While, Badri, my bank of secrets, not even a word of secret pass through that LIPS, a person that never be forgotten, never. Well, that just some people, they are lot of people actually, and I didn't need to mention all of them. To those that have a though to snatch them from me... haha you can try, yes you can, but be remember, I accept them as my friends not because they accept me as my friends, I'm a loyal type person, I gain them (my friends) as a friends because I trust them, I allow my self to be used by them as they allow they being used by me. I willing to make sacrifice for them, something that some people just will to do for people that they call honey and darling (ewwww). Because they worth it. I'm nothing without them. To Syma, sis you develop my potential, I will remember you always.

In this world, its not my interest to compete with anybody. It just my feeling to do my best and share that feeling with people close to you. I'm a laser type person, with my word and writing sharp as blade. I feel sorry if people bleed too much because you not my BFF obviously, that a prove you never know me and never accept me as I am.

Today also, I watched the Merong Mahawangsa movie: well I dunno how to describe it literally, but a review is a review.... hmm hmmm.... k let me put it this way, awesome with all that boom and bang in the plot... (I dunno how to describe the movie, its like you lough + cry + shock at the same time!)... I and Badri personally disturbing other people with our laughter, <"mengintai di bawah tudung saji>.. gosh if you know what it mean... haha... 


I want to grade as master student happily, with my friends on my back, I dun care best student award which I never dream about. I just want to take a scroll of master and a ton of happy memories...

I felt betrayed

http://youoffendmeyouoffendmyfamily.com/stabbings/cv_stabbing_1006/

I just notice, something about me, and people taking my word lightly. It just like you are insignificant to them. I always think about them, wanna them success. But in the end, word just a word. What your feeling when you ask some one to be in a group for an event, and after 12 hours, you ask for full name, this you got "sry Akmal, I with my friend group, I dunno anything about this and my friends just tell me"... WTF? you taking my word lightly isn't it. So now I'm going to play by your rule. I'm sharing NOTHING.

The other thing is when you said "ok, I'm going to be there after I go here and there"... whatever, I wait. Did you know, I wait you about 6 hours! Not even a short damn SMS? What you think I am? I trust your word, every one of it.... and now, I'm taking back that trust.

Do not take people lightly, you don't know what hope they put on every word you said. I trust this people too much, I think. Maybe this is the time to end.

I call Badri just now, well I need someone to talk about. This really frustrating and irritating.

You Such A PIG

When I see you, I hate you,

When I hate you, I ignore you,

Did you notice that?

No, you don't!

Because you are just a simply minded or lack of sensitiveness,

You dunno people angry with you?

Use your head! PIG!

*sry PIG I keep using your name... not your fault, it just easier to use PIG than his name.... TQ PIG

SHE worthless

a woman is a woman, never a man, never be a man, even she tried to be a man,

This a story regarding a woman that tried to be a man. Bisexual and homosexual, neither I care. For me its always as "Accept me as I am and you shall be accepted" + "Dun disturb me, and you won't be disturbed".

Its common that she can change the personalities in a period, but still the fragile heart remain. And that why, you can lie who you are, but you can't lie who you actually are.

I no longer like you, that a fact. For me you are a narrow-minded person, when obsession conquering logic. Narrow-mind is my enemy, because there are no space for people like me inside, when you always true and others are wrong. I know that not your principle, because its your blind loyalty. The eyes that worth nothing.

People are build with ego, no one can deny that. But the most stupid ego is to close your mind from learning and knowing - The point where you collapse.

I wont blame you, because that you, you are insignificant and yet you are my friend. Time will teach you, and you will learn, as you said "learning by experience is matter than learning in orthodoxy method".

As I write this, my feeling for you dissipate, I feel sad as I though all this time you are an open-minded person with all you have gone through, and now I realize it just an empty shell. You can be what you want to be or what you believe, as neither of that will affect me because I know you go no where.

You are You and Me is Me - obsession killing your sense

"Love The Way You Lie" Original Demo by Skylar Grey

Look into my eyes, did u see despair?

Natural Eyes (i dun know but the colour recently get very2 brown)

with contact lense

Here if you cant see it clearly

Wearing contact lens is not very fun actually, my eye lashes too long so it cost me lot hard time to put it in. Btw hygiene is very very crucial, because you must want to avoid any infection such as acanthamoeba which i have previously worked with. And second, I wear it for fun... so its Halloween everyday haha, people got shocked mostly including those makcik2 at the shop and my supervisor T_T.... anyway, remember that it just for fun!

The price for knowing

I always got upper hand on every knowledge, info, gossip2 (sry no cheap gossip, including celebrity). But those info going to make you feel the pain of knowing too much… secrets are hard to keep and come in a great price.

When you think of being an informative person, make sure it does not involve secret and only plain knowledge of certain field. If not, stitch your mouth or you going to hurt your self or ppl around you.

-advise for myself