Reasoning the Unreasonable~Where Hope Lies n Die

Me and Pakma

People around me come n go like wind. I miss them like breeze, just a feel n then all gone. Forever alone they said, but I will survive this, enduring this, even I have to crawl up n fall down as this what I have choose and what I wanna do.

In this stage I just fake everything. Emotion distorted, feeling faded, smile n laughter just a mere instrument; in the end, non are real. Lack of confident they said, but it just a natural mechanism to preserve what left while the integrity getting crumble. I have more believe in god rather to anyone around me, they seem unimportant since they are temporary, but when HE the one that send those people, I just accept them, they might be my saviour after all.

Its been a while I havent update anything n yet I barely get into my point. I wonder if I have one. I tried to grasp everything in the past, but I realize, they beyond my grasp. That the moment I walk away.

This is not a thesis, not a chapter 4 where result n discussion lies. I dun have to rearrange all the sub topics because non were read. It just burst of emotion even they are fake. I hav no audience neither a target, just a spare time to write n fill n forget.

Life is short n yet I waste it. People said I'm amazing! but is that true?... I seem to know everyone, but I barely know my self. I hate people pitying me,,, what the point? your sympathy could never save me just like comforting a hungry kitten, giving hope and a hope that die with a hope.

~Everyday is like other day, I will walk with them, but my shadow remain single~

Do what you mean, Mean what you do

Feared not something that I enjoy (picture not belong to me)

I'm not a good looking person, neither rich, stylish, brilliant, well mannered, famous, but I do shine on my own way, at least I'm not borrowing the spotlight from anyone.

I dun have clear objective of my "material life", when I want to get married, what car I wanna drive, where I wanna work and etcetera.

Because I believe no matter hard hard I try to foresee the future, in the end it just a prediction, I just wanna go forward until I stumble upon something interesting.

Life is good,

When you wish for one,

Life is hard,

When you think it is.

Life is boring,

When you stop dreaming,

Life is meaning less,

 When you stop believing.

PS: Dear blogger and Friends, no matter how hard your life, there are others having more difficult life. Live you life to the fullest as long its in the range of your BELIEF and your capabilities. LOVE YOU and wish you the best! GL HF =3

Roaming around Putrajaya

Bergambar didepan........... tah

Gedik betul budak-budak ni, aku pulak obviously terlalu excited XD

N lepas habis jer bergambar...... "area ni tutup" - guard 

(Some area will be closed to tourist approaching midnight)

There lot of place to roam at PutraJaya, try looking around, the building, design ..... architecture perhaps so moving forward... like a little Abu Dhabi in Malaysia. Btw thanks to the unpaid model n also to the so so photographer(s)....... looking forward to come here again

I just love my friend too much! pity people without friends

Firstly, no pictures. because, they not being uploaded yet.... hahahaha

Today a blast, totally a blast. All my misery gone. Meeting close friends, people that know you, accepting you. The feeling is undeniable. They are so supportive and open-minded.

Today, I bring some new "jewels" for my friends to know, they are my new friends at UKM. to be specific (Farhan and Fait). Well, they kinda very shy (unspeakable) hahahaha. I have a principle, my friends are my friends friend. WHY? I love to share good things with my friends because sharing is the way I show my respect and how important them (my friends) to me. But I dunno how long can we be friends because not all friends actually share the same mean (desire) as you and still I have high expectation on them. I just love my friends Nadea and Kucai (I dunno the real name, but whatever), such a sweet couple, an example of a good maintenance and balance between friends and BF-GF relationship (wish them happily ever after). Zatil, yes Zatil, a girl with some potent resonance with unlimited possibility. I'm glad I keep her close, and David Chang too, can't imagine how a word from Zatil can actually calm me (a breeze to my headache). Syikin... haiz, always lost today, but I'm glad I tag you with GPS stuff ahhahahahaa... (kinda crazy like me, but never mean as me haha)... Pcah, luckily meet her! such a long time. While, Badri, my bank of secrets, not even a word of secret pass through that LIPS, a person that never be forgotten, never. Well, that just some people, they are lot of people actually, and I didn't need to mention all of them. To those that have a though to snatch them from me... haha you can try, yes you can, but be remember, I accept them as my friends not because they accept me as my friends, I'm a loyal type person, I gain them (my friends) as a friends because I trust them, I allow my self to be used by them as they allow they being used by me. I willing to make sacrifice for them, something that some people just will to do for people that they call honey and darling (ewwww). Because they worth it. I'm nothing without them. To Syma, sis you develop my potential, I will remember you always.

In this world, its not my interest to compete with anybody. It just my feeling to do my best and share that feeling with people close to you. I'm a laser type person, with my word and writing sharp as blade. I feel sorry if people bleed too much because you not my BFF obviously, that a prove you never know me and never accept me as I am.

Today also, I watched the Merong Mahawangsa movie: well I dunno how to describe it literally, but a review is a review.... hmm hmmm.... k let me put it this way, awesome with all that boom and bang in the plot... (I dunno how to describe the movie, its like you lough + cry + shock at the same time!)... I and Badri personally disturbing other people with our laughter, <"mengintai di bawah tudung saji>.. gosh if you know what it mean... haha... 


I want to grade as master student happily, with my friends on my back, I dun care best student award which I never dream about. I just want to take a scroll of master and a ton of happy memories...

Look into my eyes, did u see despair?

Natural Eyes (i dun know but the colour recently get very2 brown)

with contact lense

Here if you cant see it clearly

Wearing contact lens is not very fun actually, my eye lashes too long so it cost me lot hard time to put it in. Btw hygiene is very very crucial, because you must want to avoid any infection such as acanthamoeba which i have previously worked with. And second, I wear it for fun... so its Halloween everyday haha, people got shocked mostly including those makcik2 at the shop and my supervisor T_T.... anyway, remember that it just for fun!

My Friends

Several things I usually describe my friends;

They are special,

They are sometimes annoying,

They are freak,

They are informative,

They like a breeze, come and go energetically,

They like a present, you dunno what the surprise,

They like a bee, always making noise, noise that u gonna miss when its silent,

They just like a star that making the darkest night seem fun,

They got the most sincere smile u have ever see,

They are cleaver in their own way,

They know me most, even from myself,

They never break my heart,

They teach me many things,

They are people I call brothers and sisters, ignoring their race, religion and status,

They are people that miss me, and I miss them too,

They are people that make a piece of my life seem very valuable,

They are supportive,

I dun like people to badmouth them... they are my FRIENDS not your... My best best best friends, and I love you guys

P/S: Sry the post quite colorful lol

Night + Ghostly + Senseless

 

Friday Night–Lily Allen

Malam jumaat sambil mengkagumi iTunes media player, tetiba terdengar lagu ini. Pelik rasanya sebab walaupun lagu diatas telah sedia ada tapi baru beberapa minutes lepas mendengarnya (pelik aku type dgn bahasa pnuh… anggaplah latihan penulisan BM).

Malam ni kelakar sgt,,, sbb tadi kat astro ada crita “beranak dalam kubur” (ghost story), tp problemnya aku ketawa plak masa hantu tu kuar ha ha…. aku rasa aku dah jadi sloww sikit process maklumat LOL. Nak main game pun takder mood n akhirnya tertulis blog. Journalism so not my life! but I finally end up here.. wasting a little time to get my sleepy state. Harap2 tak ada yg membazir masa baca blog ni….

Walaupun hari ini hari jumaat or creepy friday night as many people selalu kata but for islamic friday is special day… org melayu suka fikir bukan2 pasal mlm jumaat… nasib baik aku jawa <rumpun melayu gak>

Hari ni tertengok gambar shamin kat FB yg sedang menjalani training kat UTM… ps: dia dah gmuk… gosh…. oh mari sembang pasal shamin…. I know him masa first year… org yg suka tersenyum n tersengih….. oh so not in my friend list…. well I don’t like him at all!….. pernah tak tegur satu sem! but then the last 3 sem sunddenly became friend….. not very close… but one of ppl I think worth to waste that phone credit….. maybe sbb sikap dia yg senseless n bad humor…. akhir nya aku kalah! sbb susah nak buat org mcm ni faham kita tak suka dia, n lama2 kita teradapt pulak kawan ngan dia. Btw terasa nak puji sikit shamin ni.. dia seorang yg tinggi leader ship… semangat setiakawan n jiwang tak bertempat… N marilah kawan ngan budak bernama shamin sbb walaupun anda tak suka dia lama2 kita akan auto adapt sbb dia ni immune to provocation, n sinister plan…

aku baru perasan….. isi kandungan blog ni bercampur aduk! What a trash!

I going for Konvo!

Yeah tak boleh jadi tgk Jenny asyik mengupdate Blog nya... mcm dia sorang jer ada blog... serta memenuhkan inbox ku dgn coretan2 hatinya yg separuh adalah garam kasar..... walaubagaimana pun lebih bagus dari zila n kak alyn yg ku rasakan hanya bukak FB menunggu org ramai menyapa mereka seperti celebriti2..... dan yg menjadi paparazinya adalah ku dan saudagar cina Tan Tiong Kai....

Minggu ni akan ke KL tuk menjalani pembedahan gigi.... waaa mau tampak menarik di pesta konvo nanti...... dgn gigi besi.... tercapai jugak hasrat ku untuk menggigit mereka2 yg ku benci hahaha....

Dihati ini ku tak rasa rindu dgn sahabat2 ku sbb jemu melihat mereka sentiasa ada di facebook... (bgs jugak ada bende ni)......

uh cukuplah setakat ini hahahaha (selesai misi update)