Thursday, September 24, 2009

Story of star that sometimes bright and sometimes dim


Colour of Face

I have a special request to describe someone that we know,,,,,,,. this people we have know since first semester at UMT,,,, very bright, positive, righteous, and also friendly. For me She was a good friend ( as long she didn't back stabbing me or my friend ). At first semester, she was very energetic, seeing the spirit pumped us too. She was very friendly toward every single people including lecturer, however her friendly and self identity sometimes being miss understood as lobbying others but I know she not as other portrait it.

Being very different was sometimes hard; I know because I feel it too. The similarities between she and me is that we have a such unstable emotion, but the different is how we manage it. My advice to her; talking to others or making statement was very crucial with correct body language and the tone you use. Some people cannot respect or show other way to respect people, to survive in this condition you must keep the pace of your spirit down and slowly so that it wont be very obvious till the emotion resembled on your face. I also can see the different in her personalities in her; other say ''the dress isn't fit, the makeup weird! you cant wear that thick makeup in this very sunny day!". Sometimes I have to agree on those opinion. Fitting in other is not easy which you have to follow their step, sometimes we have to stand on what we believe but sometimes their are right and vice verse; this is the Quid pro quo (The price for that) where in order to have something there must be something you must exchange. Those that can fit and blend in other without sacrificing their identity was a survival of the fittest, those not fit shall be rejected and this is the normal way of the rule.

Back to the topic. At this final year many changes has happen to her; some describe it as personalities shock that happen when somebody exposed to many factor that might lead to confuse of self identity. Well for me, I accept as you can accept me; an advice again, those word are irritating for sure, people can say anything and none can stop that. Either you reject that or take that as an advice that comes in a bitter way, or seeing into your self. Denying own self was hurting but the achievement after that was sweet. Homo hominis lupus (Man's a predator to another man). Some say her voice was too loud and I happily can say yes! that truth! well in other perspectives that voice irritating their ears! since they are people that comes with very complex do and don't manner.... this kind of people mix with people that mostly comes from upper class than our the middle class. Knowing them before hating them is a wisdom of those survival; we cant blame them for the way they think or be because that way was far more evolve. And yet we will became like that when we got to that level. Dress resembling pride, makeup resembling pride, altitude resembling pride, this is the Vanitas vanitatum where all making up a complex personalities. Different people have different aspect of pride..... for me your voice have spirit in it, but the space belong to everybody; sometimes people have bad mood or memory, when a loud shock can irritate them..... we cant win all heart...

She have a good friends by her side; but can she prove to other that consider her as annoying girl that she can balance and change? can became very high level? can she amaze us? truthfully I also wanna see.... every people have a complex personalities, many have more than two personalities, but which are dominance to others? winning other people heart is not what I ask neither to became other than you wanna be. But sometimes, a surprise can change people mind. We wanna see can you adapt?

Too many I want to write; but the decision is still up to her, became your self doesn't mean became other; but it like a melody....

Sunday, September 20, 2009

A long break

Its have been a long time I didnt update anything into this blog. not because nothing to say but sometimes things a not mean to say.

Well its raya after all. Not to be hypocrite, I not a raya fanatic people; raya or not raya..... have less means in my life, as long i finish my duty as a follower. I feel sad for Jenny to be left by her flight and sorrow to Leo that we left alone at home; there are not Muslim but however in my life dictionary no matter who your friend are, if you was their truly friends; we must treasure them.

A first raya was annoying and good thing to me. annoying when people came and act like they know you for a long time; the good thing is that I had visit my long passed grandmother.

Well I have to leave for now, till we meet again.... tata

Monday, August 24, 2009

Wanna See Dead Like Me - Life After Death

Horror or Funny
p/s: I think both

Tonight just pampered my self with a movie of Dead Like Me - Life After Death, and well it is a good movie,,, well I recommend for those to watch it!

The ending song was also great,,, even it sound funny to my ears.
So check it out ya!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Silent Heart


To feel what love is, is something rare for me,
To know the person shade was only thing I can,
To grab the scent was far from my ability,
To wait the person wish for me was a suffering,
To know my time gone, was a hurt,
To feel to be love, was everyone wish,
But to feel the love from the person........ will never be....
My self perish in mist...

I have a feeling to someone, but I don't feel I can be match with this person, therefore, I let the feeling gone, closing the heart was a cheat. But I did seal the feeling in a box within the arcade of my heart.

Given up this fast was must; as it will protect me from cutting my self deeper.

Reading this part for some of you, that has known this soul quite a well was something indeed impossible from me. But this is the feeling and memory I want to share a bit,,, as the secret of truth shall sleep beneath my arcade forever.

As time pass by I hope my time to be loved and to give love,,, shall cross.
This selfish wish of mine, comes from a empty soul,,,
For even a small of dust,,, or a tick of time; I just want to feel those feeling.....

And then my soul shall rest in peace as I known there something to be remember, even though my self shall not be remember.

Burning Candle was too noble to suit me, perhaps shade was better; as shade always behind and never being look at, as the shade it self can only grasp the figure it admire and never the reality.

Till the time comes, the silent heart wait...

Back there at Tuntung Conservation (PERHILITAN)

Tuntung

70 years old at his dead



With En. Fazlin (this picture weird, maybe I not posing well)


Rm 50000 first comes first serve

Engagements

Well not bad going to the Tuntung Conservation place after all just no kipas lerrrr.. The sad thing is that the place have to function very very limited equipments... I hope kerajaan Malaysia would foresee their (PERHILITAN at remote area) hard time,,, I think its better to reduce cost on event n partying or whatever event for those VIP and VVIP... relocate the money to this program or others program like it. Isn't it better for them? from continuously in bitter.

Huhuhuhu funny thing is when talking about bontot shamin hahahahahha what a breaking news!

Some of the girls want to look for Jenny post to view it LOL!

Its fun when became close to others...

On Air


Now going home!!! I in my way to got home now in the middle of somewhere, and tonight huhuhuhu,,, more story and myth,,, I have show my friends blog to Linda and Illi,,, just want to give some spirit of blogging to them... so that there are more friends in here! to share.

We just gone to Tuntung Conservation at Kuala Berang Terengganu... Have many beautiful picture of what we say exotic animals.

For those that eat them please stop!

I love those tiny guys....

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Mixed days


Lata Tembakah Gap area

Me and Lun Lun (I have a big nostril for better breathing n Jenny very jealous with it)


Hahaha Jenny photo contast



Broadband sim baru ganti, cost me additional RM5 for next bill!

My greatest apologize since the previous blog should be post yesterday but some how my broadband sim damage with whatever reason. The important thing is now its ok... I have finish my proposal gladly, even though I have to print it 3 times! since all the page were senget!!!!!!!!!! How frustrating...
Oh Jenny hahahaha you think I didn't have any backup plan? here your picture gagaaggagagaaa..... This morning gone to Tuntung Breeding place or conservation,,, tah I don't know... but nvm meet this morning everyone!
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