March (Akmal, 2010)

Hahaha dah lama tak update blog,,, kata zatil berhabuk huhu...

Today Kak Syma telah berjaya mengimport perfume Ralph Lauren Polo Black yg sangat misteri,,, (bau dia),,, mmg misteri sbb I try a spray n lepas tu tak sampai 15 minutes aku trus tertido.... Uh mmg pelik.... well I kind of like it,,, tq Syma Branded hahahaha.... harga kat luar hmm around RM2++ but dapat RM190 cause bli kat kawasan duty free.... KLIA.

Kak Syma

I like perfume, it make my nose feel very very good and feel relax lots better... uh down here is the ingredient that they use to make the smell... sense magical...

[Frosted mango, Aldehyde Tangerine, Lemon, Fruits of water, Sage, Sandal, Black Patchouli, Timberol, Broad bean Tonka]

POLO BLACK

Hmm another think saya baru dapat tgk Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce telephone.... as expected from Lady Gaga..... nice vid n song.... freak actually but that what I call art and unique....

Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce - Telephone

Hmm my FYP sound good condition.... sekarang tgh study tuk exam.... walaupun cuma 1 per 20 shj waktu dalam sehari study... uh God I am very lazy today hahahaha..... tp rindu rasanya kat staff, master student at Inos especially penghabitat Makmal 3 haha..... I wanna see the amoeba for the last times before I fly over to my kampung....

Sometimes I have chat conservation with people from Canada, Norway, UK, US n where ever, girls man, autie, uncle, straight, bisex, homo, ah I dun care,,,, since I wanna compete with Zila tuk tgk sapa ada kawan paling ramai di YM haha since that I add and being added by people around the globe.... kadang leh jadi duta gak,,, yang paling pelik,,, sometimes I do the vid conversation, U know what they say, (1) you look very young (2) Nice skin colour (3) Your lips is very kissable>>> this are stuff I can never imagine to hear around here,, pretty much it make me appreciate my self n I also think they blind sometimes; usually I response like this... "I dont think so, maybe the cam make me look better on it" ... maybe I should go for oversea for further study and see their response! My YM friends currently 266 people.... I need more... yang paling tak tahan bila tetiba ada peminat yg tak dijemput nak tgk cam shj,,, masa tu lar fungsi invisible sgt bernilai...

People said my face look very convenient for people to interact with, is it? my friend say.. "haha mmg muka mesra, innocent... tp demonic presence tu ada" (Amir, 2010) <<< Amir dengki haha

other... "Your face look like org yg kerja kat kaunter pertanyaan!" (Jenna, 2010).

Eh susah nak jadi kaunter pertanyaan, U have to know lots of stuff,,, n many2 links... but thanks to internet; everything possible... yg paling penting to know all or desire for all knowledge,,, U must be open-minded at the same times put a barrier that keep you away from the knowledge you might gain because not all knowledge made for all type of human...

Uhh nampaknyer I succeed updating this blog for 1 month period haha.. yeah tak yah update sebulan....

This is unacceptable!

I wanna buy something on ebay... and it state that we only have the product at singapore only... malaysia? hmm nop......... waaaa so frustrated!

Why huh?

I just want to have that item lorr.... uh Malaysia plz develop faster but plz conserve the environment too...

I learn this... one of the obstacle of conservation was North-South division which refer to industrialize country at North and Develop country at south... north country have people that mostly educated, well feed and love environment because they have learn from their bad habit of destructing it in the past. Believing they must have and spread conservation to protect globally. why south country full with people that dun wan to learn from past history, stubborn, high poverty, we also believe that we have right to feed our selves even it shall cost the environment.... I can guarantee if u go to any people adult 40++ and say sir our nature is very badly disturbed n bla bla bla... it wont work!

I have been in this taxi and the driver say what u do there,,,, tanam bakau pakcik... and he reply why tanam bakau better go work got money,,,,, bakau can live them selves. uh that poor pakcik need to go for science class! badly.

I an one of scientific community and vow to spread the knowledge even it shall be the pain in ass. shit.

Party, Annoy, Argue, Opinion, Distraction, Sress

Ni buat dalam bahasa Melayu sbb ramai org susah nak faham bila aku cakap depan2 mcm ar aku fail pemahaman sekolah rendah tp mungkin sbb aku tak bertutur mengikut trend org lama2. I dunno nak pergi annual dinner lagi ker tak sbb sound mcm anual party! furthermore, almost all my BFF tak nak pergi, why? because tu dah mcm gathering... untuk pengetahuan korang walaupun tak tanya aku dah cari pakaian n macam2 tp bila dapat info yg last2 minit >>>> combine uh god, my interest gone... sem akhir dah ni, so aku dah tak berapa peduli dah pasal himpun ramai2 ni, sbb I only interest to meet my friends only. tp still tak bg kata putus cause tgk ar kalau BFF aku say "jom ar bg muka" maybe lerr. First sem i dun go fot anual dinner why? I have thing to do at home but i pay; second year, I went sbb bg muka kat kawan aku ni sbb asyik datang umah merayu2, but kawan aku kata yg keter putih tu masa dinner kita dianak tirikan jer,,,, btul ker? maybe aku dah hilang sensitivity. third year? haha whose know if i going or not. people I wanna have fun with my family (BIOD) tp kalau dah gather ngan kumpulan besar yg i only know 10% shj,,, i cant be myself. what the hell i care to other people that bising2 kata tak sporting lah or what ever cause I Have Right To Choose. that for the dinner...

Ni yg pasal teater, I not aktif member due to my other stuff yg aku lagi suka buat. so ada plak senior yg bising2 sbb tak involve, ko nak involve pergi ar involve... saya dah tawar hati. noktah. but am i still support teater? yes sbb ia menarik.

Uh I have enough with all of this, ada yg kata Akmal what do u have....... I tell U, I sincerely dun have what U have or what most people have. But i have what most people dun have. kalau semua org dalam dunia ni sama jer,,, baik mati! boring btul. tp kan ayat tu mmg mengguris maybe sbb kena kut, but takper I know what Im capable in.

Dua tahun aku asyik ikut jer apa org kata org buat. sekarang dah final, aku tak kisah dah. because the time after graduation I have another life to think about.

To my BioD family, no matter I love or I hate U with all my life but still u are my family, no matter how our past relations have been u still my family,,, because to the family we shall return to. (bende sama aku cakap kat Ayu).

Dan kepada yg cuba sakit kan hati aku, uh congratulation u are hell successful. and if u happy with it fine, if i do mistake to u i apologize,,, that all what can i offer.

Im in critical moment to plan my next life so people plz have some sensitivity that I not a doll!

Have a nice day

Down n Up like global warming n global cooling

Firstly, my plan for post-graduate study (MSc Programme) is likely to became true.....

The lecture say well Im more happy to supervise u if u can maintain your CGPA 3.++,,,,, so, I think I can, and then apply for master fellowship RM 1,300 a month wahaha,,,,

Anyway its not the money that I chase, but the knowledge,,, I not a book worm, more to computer worm (not virus ler) but at least I have a dream that shall be reality,,,,

What worrying me now is that,,, my treatment always contaminate but never mind cause I have discover the technical error and I shall get the result (FYP getting fast),,,, well as you know at most critical moment that we need to submit work struggle with borrowed life and time,, this would be the likely moment for problem to arrise... Oh GOD save me...

A new begining.... for my old self...

Just another me...

Dear people,,, today is my birthday, a sign that I have already 22. Well nothing planned to celebrate it. Why, I'm just busy or more sincerely I don't feel I have too. Me, myself comes from a family that not celebrate this day. I just know people celebrate it from movie n whatever.

But I never expect many people wish me happy birthday and that make my heart melt. A power of bound and information.

So, I just wanna say and express my deep gratitude for remembering me as well as being very sweet to me. Forgot all the gift, I don't need that. I just wish to be carved in your memory as a people that embrace his friends.

Let me share you something,,, as for the new year and my birthday; I want to obtain my old self. A far different people you know from today since I'm very ignorance hahahaa. Forgive me for all the mistake I have done so I can be what I used to be, a long time ago. Thank you.... dear friends.

I though I lost her

Losing a friend?

Well last night was a very chaotic day in my friendship history. I didn't mind to lost any of my friends because they are just merely a friend. But losing a best-friends? nop nop nop. That was unacceptable. I do know she was very fragile, not sensitive to others also others that not sensitive to her,,,

I hope she read this that Im very sorry for all the miss communication and also lack attention given to you coz I'm barely trying to care of all heart of you people there. And therefore I missed you,

People do talk about you how you became ignorance and hurting other in a way you didn't notice, but for me its normal because that was you a past 2 years I have known you, yes people do change but most characteristic still there.

I recognize you as my best friend and I hope thing like this won't happen again. I also a fragile being; I think more fragile than you, easily break. I have more friends than you but they are like thorn in my heart. I treasure you as my friend and stand for you if you not there. "We" accept you as our best friends but sometimes there and not me wandering why you treat someone that not sharing everything with you like information, plan, fun, and what so ever, more than you treat us, we are here; your best friends. We need some attention and appreciation from you. We dunno if you afford to loss us. But I sincerely not.

"Friends is people that you can find anywhere, but best friends might come just one in thousand, they always thinking and taking you with them, share something they wont share with others, because you are more worthy to be with"

Problem teaching Us and teaching others

Abstract Suit Me Better Than Formal

Lately many thing unfavorable happen to me... its hurts and burden me much,,, where sometimes friend became enemy and rival became more supportive to myself. I hate problems and sickness. Hearing other people problem also hurting me deeply. Well a world free from problem was never exist. I realize that day by day I have became the old me,, negative,,, negative person. A type that not easily going well and where everything got filtered in my head.

However, Im glade that there still people that still support me and advise me. Sometimes I can became very naive and clumsy,,, sorry to other,,, I really want to finish this degree student life as quick as possible and get going to the next level far away from past memory.

Life isn't fair as always Jenny said....

For me life isn't fair if we keep thinking about we desire and when other get it easily but we have to work hard for it.

My FYP,,, hmm the cell contaminated and now its still in unfavorable condition. I really hope it will get ok soon. very soon...

Am I jealous about others? yes I am. I jealous. I want what they have,,, physically or materially. But as time goes on all gone like it is easily wipe out. Time a good medicine for me...

I hope problems can teach me well to get going as I want to live with life. Lastly, I just want to be myself... not other person, as other have idol for their motivation,,, I'm not, because I just want to be me, just me.