PASW... I'm Going MAD

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Reasoning the Unreasonable~Where Hope Lies n Die

Me and Pakma

People around me come n go like wind. I miss them like breeze, just a feel n then all gone. Forever alone they said, but I will survive this, enduring this, even I have to crawl up n fall down as this what I have choose and what I wanna do.

In this stage I just fake everything. Emotion distorted, feeling faded, smile n laughter just a mere instrument; in the end, non are real. Lack of confident they said, but it just a natural mechanism to preserve what left while the integrity getting crumble. I have more believe in god rather to anyone around me, they seem unimportant since they are temporary, but when HE the one that send those people, I just accept them, they might be my saviour after all.

Its been a while I havent update anything n yet I barely get into my point. I wonder if I have one. I tried to grasp everything in the past, but I realize, they beyond my grasp. That the moment I walk away.

This is not a thesis, not a chapter 4 where result n discussion lies. I dun have to rearrange all the sub topics because non were read. It just burst of emotion even they are fake. I hav no audience neither a target, just a spare time to write n fill n forget.

Life is short n yet I waste it. People said I'm amazing! but is that true?... I seem to know everyone, but I barely know my self. I hate people pitying me,,, what the point? your sympathy could never save me just like comforting a hungry kitten, giving hope and a hope that die with a hope.

~Everyday is like other day, I will walk with them, but my shadow remain single~

Do what you mean, Mean what you do

Feared not something that I enjoy (picture not belong to me)

I'm not a good looking person, neither rich, stylish, brilliant, well mannered, famous, but I do shine on my own way, at least I'm not borrowing the spotlight from anyone.

I dun have clear objective of my "material life", when I want to get married, what car I wanna drive, where I wanna work and etcetera.

Because I believe no matter hard hard I try to foresee the future, in the end it just a prediction, I just wanna go forward until I stumble upon something interesting.

Life is good,

When you wish for one,

Life is hard,

When you think it is.

Life is boring,

When you stop dreaming,

Life is meaning less,

 When you stop believing.

PS: Dear blogger and Friends, no matter how hard your life, there are others having more difficult life. Live you life to the fullest as long its in the range of your BELIEF and your capabilities. LOVE YOU and wish you the best! GL HF =3